Difficulty with being stuck to one person.

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I hadn't realized this until now, but looking back through my life I seem to get stuck hanging out with one person. I learn to communicate with them very well but I am unable to communicate with others. Depending upon who I am around most frequently I seem to create a discord that functions around that person. When talking with other people, unknowingly I begin to have a lot of difficulty while talking to them because they are not the person I frequently am with.

Also separation anxiety seems to be pretty huge, but I didn't realize that until now either.

That happened to me before but I started to get out more and try new things. It was the best thing I have ever done because it made my life more fun and adventurous. I recommend getting a family member or the person you have been hanging out with and ask if they can give you a push to try new things. That's what I did!

I have had two long term (over 10 years) and two shorter (under 2 years) relationships.

In each one I became very dependent on my partner. I found the break-up after the shorter relationships extremely distressing. Unfortunately in the longer relationships my partners became increasingly abusive but I was unable to let go. When those relationships eventually failed it was in each case catastrophic for my health, emotions and finances. It is only recently that I recognised this behavioural pattern after talking in depth to someone who had escaped from an abusive ex.

I now realise that in social situations I tend to latch on to one person I feel comfortable with and reduce my interaction with others.

I believe that this behavioural history was caused by undiagnosed aspergers combined with no self confidence and low self esteem.

I now rely on my brother and a small group of friends for most of my social contact. (Plus passing contact with members of several societies I have joined.) I have been living on my own since 2010 and am now very wary of entering another relationship.

This has effected me my whole life. I got divorced and I still miss my husband, even though we haven't spoke in 8 years. Like, miss him every single day. It's bad. Growing up, I would just have 1 friend at school. If they were absent, I would be alone that day. I think this is pretty normal for us, but NTs don't like it, and they don't like us being codependent.

As I've gotten older it's become easier to talk to other people but I still just keep one person close to me.