This is getting old

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I am really annoyed and tired of the fact that in my whole life I basically have never had any normal social relationship. I was never a friend to anyone, just the person to talk to when no one else was around.

Two years ago, I met a girl at school, we had pretty similar opinions and I had this small hope that maybe we could be friends. Now, after two years, when someone asks if we are friends, she says something along the lines that we're just classmates. I don't get it, am I really that horrible?

Or when I asked a dude out. He made up an excuse that he has too much responsibilities, that he doesn't have time for dating. Seriously? I mean, he's 17. Even if he had responsibilities, he still has time to hang out with friends. Maybe he thinks I'm crazy, he knows me for some time and I used to do a lot of stupid s**t back then.

I hate to admit it, but I still have some normie in me, and that normie demands social relations. And that's not really possible when you have autism. It's a vicious circle. I wish I could be independent and happy with just myself.

You cannot force friendships. They just happen. It's exceptionally difficult as a teen or if you're in your early twenties because there is so much going on in life at that time, and still the peer pressure to do this or that.

My usual suggestion for making friends is to join a club or organization of something you're interested in. If it's an art class, a group of gamers or fan club of something. With like interests, your chances of creating a friendship increase. If not then you are, at the very least, involved in something which interests you. Granted, this sort of thing can be difficult if you have problems with socializing, but having a shared interest can make it easier. You can even start with online, and eventually meet people who are geographically close.

Another similar outlet would be to volunteer at something.

Most of all, don't be critical of yourself. While it may seem that other people seem to make friends with no effort just remember that they're not normal. They're not right, but you can't quite manage to put your finger on it.

I am not forcing anything. I just thought that after two years we had at least blooming friendship between us. I just don't know what I did wrong.

And I went to school where I thought I could develop my interests. The people here are different than at other schools but I still don't fit in. Even when I try to talk to someone, I always say something that weirds them out and they don't see me the same way anymore.