Zeno wrote:
Does anyone notice that their autism actually worsens with age? Mine certainly does. When I was growing up and my brain was still expanding, I slept a lot, behaved oddly but I did not feel the worst effects like the running mind or the meltdowns. Now that I am in my thirties, and far more aware of the limitations that autism imposes on me, I find that the effects of autism really hits me. Maybe when I was young and there were not that many bad memories to recall, the running mind problem does not get to show me a slide show of the worst moments of my life over and over again. Happiness is just one of the prerogatives of innocence. But as I age, the effects on my body becomes ever more pronounced. I started noticing irregularities in my heart rate and beat when I was in my early twenties. It would come and it would go. Since I exercise regularly, I am by no means unfit. The physiological symptoms coincides perfectly with the rhythm of slipping in and out of autistic impairment.
Does anyone else amongst the more mature members of this community have the same experience?
I don't. Interestingly, the running mind type deal bothered me a LOT earlier. I actually had to concentrate REAL hard to STOP IT, and it often quickly came back. what I think might be meltdowns only happen with the type of stress I generally didn't get in school.
The heartbeat deal isn't an autie/aspie trait. And exercise does ****NOT**** mean you are fit, and can actually HURT! Eating "healthy" can hurt TOO! Have you asked a doctor about your heart? It could be due to a bad valve(People generally acquire damage as early as their TWENTIES), bad vessels/blood supply(It often becomes noticable as early as the TEENS), etc... For the valves, colds and infections can do it. For the blood vessels it can be genetic, vitamin/amino deficiencies, too much cholesterol or other junk, not enough omega 3/6, etc....
Note that exercise wasn't mentioned ONCE! Exercise CAN make it all more noticable and exascerbate it. There IS a reason why they say you should consult a doctor before starting!
Steve