I don't know why but even though I've lived with dad with my stepmum who lives in Essex and he moved to her house from Kent 4 or 5 years ago, I grew up in Kent and I know Essex is like any other county in the UK where everybody is no different, I sometimes feel alien and like I don't always fit in there and think everyone there is attractive like out of those reality TV shows like The Only Way is Essex with girlfriends and boyfriends and I sometimes I think I must be unattractive and a geek and that I am seem more interested in books than going out to a social environment in Essex to meet women, when I like both my books and socialising with new people.