I've never been officially diagnosed with aspergers and it's driving me crazy. The person who started with this whole thought of me possibly having it was my mother who is now doubting it. But when I started to think of myself as of an autistic person, my life kind of improved. I didn't feel as bad about awkward situations and my inability to converse. I took a test I found on the site and my score was pretty high. I am afraid that if I take the official test, I will just get told that I don't have aspergers, just anxiety as I got told before. At this point I wish I had it because it would explain so many things and would prove to my mother that I am not just a lazy piece of s**t as she thinks.
Weak Body:
sometimes psychologists give out misdiagnoses.
the neuropsychiatrist that diagnosed me with autism, gave me the Rote Memory test. he recited 10 digit numbers and told me to recite them backwards. the first 3 digits in each number was a San Diego area code. 619, 760, 858. thus, it made it easier to get a higher score on the Rote Memory section. a high rote memory score is a characteristic of autism. thus making it easier to fulfill the criteria. standards. for Diagnostic Statistical Manual. diagnosis autism.
thus, psychiatric diagnoses do not necessarily "prove" anything per se. psychiatric diagnoses are professional labels. classifications. they serve functions. such as insurance.
furthermore, even if you do get the correct diagnosis, your mom might proceed. continue. at assuming that you are lazy.
the word "lazy" is ambiguous. vague. and judgmental.
maybe her expectations are unreasonable altogether, regardless of how hard you work.
yeah i am chinese. and when i was young, my precious lil "parents" used to tell me that someone else's chinese daughter did some awesome academic prodigy activity. and why was i not like that.
my precious lil "parents" did not accept me. blatant rejection.
but hey whatever.
what one person labels as "lazy" someone else labels as hard working.
04 Jul 2017, 5:27 am
