Trueno wrote:
I tend to think you are born with a finite reserve of energy... a bit like a fuel tank. So I believe in conserving as much energy as possible.
You are absolutely correct, totally. I am a workaholic because that's what my autism want me to be. I can not cope with half-finished tasks and the very thought not completing what I had hoped to get finished totally stresses me out. Now like a bunch of us sleeping is not my forte, never was, never will be. Also like many, many autistic people, my head is full of stuff and never stops, so I stop sleeping at all. Add this heady mix together along with the usual background level of aspie anxiety, social communication, and sensory overloads and you have a time bomb just waiting to go off.
If I do not allow myself enough spoons, borrow too many from the next day and I am going to make myself ill. I have been warned and warned and warned, and still, I do it, I am compelled to, well not anymore. I have just started my dream job with a well-known UK autism charity after being out sick and losing my last job with anxiety and foolishly disclosing I am on the spectrum.
I intend to look after myself this time
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