DevilKisses wrote:
QuietThoughts wrote:
Yes and no....
I accept that I have autism...but I don't let it's label slow me down.
Also..I don't tell people I have it...though my inner family circle knows.... and they treat me the same way as before <3
Accepting that i have it..has given me so much peace of mind.
It's been the opposite for a while. I identified with the label autistic for a long time. I considered it part of me and something I had. I was even into the autism pride stuff for a few years. The label was ultimately unhelpful for me. I constantly felt sorry for myself and I often limited myself. That's not piece of mind at all. I get that some people don't get slowed down by the label. I'm just not one of them.
Now I just see autism as a collection of traits and behaviors. I also see autism and other psychiatric diagnoses as labels and opinions. Not something I have. Now my story is that my parents wanted funding, I couldn't really fit into a label and one person thought I was autistic.
A lot more people don't think I'm autistic. It was just one person that did. There was a lot of people that knew about my diagnosis and didn't question it, but I don't think anyone else looked at me and suspected I'm autistic.
This post explains more than the original post.
Things like autism and adhd are constructed by people, drawing an imaginary line between one collection of human traits and another collection of human traits. Imagine you had a time machine, and you could travel back in time to the stone age. Now how would you explain the concept of 'dyslexia' to a stone age man?
I'm certain high functioning autism was less debilitating in the past when the majority of people were farmers and fishermen and spent a lot of their lives outdoors and with a small group of people they knew well. I talked to someone who was a child in the thirties, growing up on a farm. She said that people worked hard, but there was never the kind of stress people experience in the modern world. Clumsiness must have been a huge problem in those environments, though, but anyone can learn to feed the sheep and muck out.
I absolutely hate the idea that autistics should seclude themselves and live in their own little insular world. It would entail divorcing half of my family. I just want to limit my social interaction to the people I can handle.
I needed the diagnosis for protection, though. It helps me to stand up to people who want to force me to do things I'm not capable of.
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I sometimes leave conversations and return after a long time. I am sorry about it, but I need a lot of time to think about it when I am not sure how I feel.