pdd-nos/can you almost "feel" your brain

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It's sort of bizarre to think about, but if you think about it, those on the spectrum are, essentially, born into a different brain, and it's almost as if the neurotypical part of my brain can sense the neurotypical part. Although, this is difficult to describe and I would like to hear if anyone else hear has discovered this phenomena.

It tends to occur when I'm making a connection between two or more things.

I'm autistic and a lot of the time, I'll sort of cruise along focused on an external task and then suddenly I'll run into some aspect that is extra challenging for me, sometimes having to do with short-term memory, or verbal processing, or some overwhelming sensory input. At that point the part of my brain that's used to just cruising along becomes aware that, for instance, the verbal processing part of my brain is behaving very strangely or shutting down and I get more and more aware of the fact that I'm not processing words. Or, like you mention, when I'm connecting a number of things, like multiple steps in a series of instructions, and all of a sudden the words and all just drain out of my head and I'm blank for a few moments and have to start over. At those times I realize that I'm different from NTs and trying to make my brain do something my brain is extra-challenged by. If I really push myself to get through the difficulty, it's like I can actually feel my brain struggling and even "vibrating". Maybe NTs sometimes feel that too if they push their brains to do certain tasks like software engineering (that I do well at) - I'm not sure.