An apology

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When I first joined this site, I used phrases like "I'm embarrassed to be autistic"....It was incredibly offensive towards to the members of the community....I was in a state of shock after getting diagnosed and I felt like rubbish about it.

I now accept my diagnosis, I do not feel negative about it in anyway. It's just a part of who I am and there's no in trying to deny it or feel ashamed of it...

I hope anyone reading this forgives me for the bad words I chose

I forgive you. When I first learned about my diagnosis as a kid, I definitely had feelings of shame/denial. But now I am very proud of who I am.

I do not take offense to statements like “I am embarrased to be autistic” because it was not directed to us as a group but just was an honest expression of how you felt about yourself.

I am happy you have accepted that autism is a part of who you are. Accepting this part of you is going to help you in a number of ways.

It's cool. Seems like a pretty common reaction to have, both in those who were diagnosed as adults and as kids. And it's really understandable. It can be a scary and overwhelming realization, so it's only natural to have these kinds of responses. Even if you've known for a long time, it can be difficult to come to terms with the fact that you are and always will be different.
I'm pretty newly diagnosed myself, and while I wasn't embarrassed of it, I did deny it for a long time. I was 13 the first time someone told me they thought I was autistic. 20 the first time a psychiatric doctor pointed it out, and I didn't fully accept it until I was in the middle of my assessment, three years later.

Glad you're starting to accept yourself as you are. It only gets better from there.

I'm sure it was easy to see this is something you got blindsided by and are struggling to come to terms with like anyone else would.

I had bad luck with finding resources also...

I saw that really cruel "I am Autism" video and it horrified me to no end.....I have no idea if that has been discussed on this site before...please excuse me if it has.....I've read up on how that video has been debunked however

I can't explain what scared me to the level that it did

Again, I'm really sorry

It's a creepy video. I don't remember it, but I remember that was creepy. I looked over all your posts and I like them. You have the same name as my favorite person. You're a good person to have around here and I'm really glad you joined us.

I hadn't seen that video either... Makes it sound like demonic possession!

I apologize as well, for times when I fail to understand how I come across to other people, and hurt others without meaning to. I definitely have a 'social blindness' in that way, and continually offend, but I am truly sorry.

@Ashariel
You have nothing to be sorry for, never be sorry for something that you have no control over....me though...I knew full well the words I choosing to use.

@EzraS
Same name as your favourite person? Are you a fan of Star Wars? Cause I chose that name cause Rogue One: A Star Wars Story is my favourite movie

I'm still trying to compose what I want to say properly...working on it moment by moment

I like Rogue One a lot, but I like my cousin Liam even better

Looking forward to what you have to say.

@rogueone - please do not worry, I am never offended by the sort of thing you describe and have apologised for. My own dx, much later in life, was a shock to the system, and many strange and mixed feelings came out.

@EzraS Oh I thought you were talking about my username haha

I was going to write a thing, but I have to go to work today so I'll get to it as soon I get home today