Difficulty bringing body together

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Does anyone else have difficulty bringing their body together in their mind? What I mean is hard to describe, it's not just proprioception difficulty (difficulty feeling parts of the body or body in space). It is different. I'll give an example:

When sitting down and thinking 'get up and go over to the kitchen counter' I just cannot imagine doing this, it's like I just cannot bring the bits of my body together in such a 'whole' way. Another example: if I have to put my clothes on I just cannot imagine doing this, I have to do each bit separately and slowly to avoid trying to see the whole task. If I do try to see the whole task I get a massive overload with anxiety, feeling sick and if really bad complete meltdown.

I think it must be sensory, if feels like it is, a processing difficulty. The reason I think this is because if I hear too many noises at once I have to tune out otherwise the exact same feeling of overload occurs. If I try to hear someone talking for example when there is background noise I start to feel really sick and anxious and sort of dizzy. This is because I have auditory processing disorder. Now I think it is very similar this other thing I get, except it is a different sense from the auditory sense.

So for example to type this message I have to tune out of awareness of different bits of body, I am only thinking about the sense in my fingertips. If I try to be aware of other body parts at the same time this massive overload starts to come on. Feeling sick now thinking about it, and other sense becoming really sensitive, it's horrible.

So to reiterate: I get overloaded if I try to think of multiple body parts at once, I have to do physical things including typing and speaking really slowly so that I can just focus on this one body activity at a time, if I try to imagine 'whole' or complex body movements like 'go over there' or 'get up' or 'move to the left' I get overloaded and sick feeling. If I want to move to the left I need to just focus on the movements in my legs (move legs here). If I want to 'get up' I cannot follow this command, I just get 'stuck' and cannot move (if I try, I get a meltdown). I get stuck in a bath because of this. Instead of these whole body commands I need very specific instructions ('leg up, feel your foot on the floor, move your hand onto here', etc). For example to get out of the bath I normally need help and prompts like 'leg up', 'hand on here', 'feet over the side', 'feet on the floor', 'here's the towel'.

If I have to write a signature for example this is really difficult 'please write your signature' is like a whole body thing which involves all sorts of parts and stages (e.g. getting your arm to the page, putting the pen to paper, writing the word), I have to have the command 'pen tip here' then as a separate command 'write signature', two commands for the two different actions (putting pen to page, writing the word).

Another example is making food. If someone puts a knife in my hand and puts a cucumber in front of m I can cut it up but if they say 'we need cucumber for lunch' there are too many parts to this, I need to break down each part of the action into different pieces to be able to do it: open the fridge, open the drawer, find the cucumber (with eyes), grasp cucumber, lift cucumber, put cucumber on work surface, be given knife, cut cucumber. I need to think every command in stages like this (never 'get a cucumber out of the fridge') because otherwise I get a massive overload and can't do it.

Please unlock the car: I find this too hard, I need to be given the car keys, then be turned round to point me towards the car, then prompted to press the button to unlock. I can remember the stages sometimes on my own if the context is similar, but if I try to remember them all together I freeze and lock up and cannot move or think. I have to remember one stage at a time.

I hope this is enough examples, it is hard to describe and I have not heard anyone else say they have this. I have always had it. I would really like to hear anyone else who has this, especially anyone with PDA or who thinks they might have PDA as I wonder if it is related or the same thing.

"Mental Multitasking" in my case...
Except mine happened to be adequate enough to perform tasks well on daily basis. My only problem now is reaction time never seem to improve itself.


Several examples you posted do happened to me when I'm seriously exhausted beyond my limits.
It doesn't have to be processing disorder alone. There is something between the physical self and inner self, it's tolerance and threshold, and some systems I couldn't describe yet.
The main way I cope with such state would mean focus and conservation of energy if needed.


Some calls it fragmentation I think?? I haven't gone deeper there yet.

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Thanks Edna3362, I have difficulties with mental multitasking and executive function and planning, so for example it is hard to think ahead or arrange thoughts in my head. This thing is different though, it is like a sense is overloading, so it comes with other senses overloading too like lights getting too bright and sounds getting louder and touch getting horrible. I just don't know what sense would cause this inability to use your body, do you? This freezing thing feels like, if I move at all or do any active action I will get a sensory overload, and it is always threatening to turn on/overload. It is like I have to be totally physically and mentally passive to prevent the overload. Even when I am typing this it is as if I am only focussing on my fingers otherwise the overload will turn on. I hope this makes sense.