My meltdowns have been getting increasingly bad over the past year or so, I think due to stress. I used to be able to keep my aggressive behaviours (hitting, biting, scratching etc.) focused on myself, but over the past several months, every time someone has tried to touch or restrain me to keep me from hurting myself, my first instinct is to pull away, and if that fails, to try and bite them. I finally succeeded on Tuesday when my meltdown was so bad that my friend called the paramedics. She tried to restrain me and didn't watch her arm closely enough, and I swung around and bit her. I didn't want to, but during my meltdowns, it's like I'm trapped inside my own head, watching someone else control my body. I apologised, and she said it was fine and that it didn't hurt or leave a mark, but I still feel really bad about it. Have any of you experienced anything like this?
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"Survival is insufficient" - Seven of Nine
Diagnosed with ASD level 1 on the 10th of April, 2014
Rediagnosed with ASD level 2 on the 4th of May, 2019
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