Post-meltdown Rapture

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After I've had a melt-down, or more usually for me, a shut-down, I'm usually extremely tired and sleepy, which seems to be a pretty common thing. However, for me, this fatigued state can actually be quite blissful and serene - not euphoric, just incredibly calm. It's how I imagine meditation might feel, though I've never been at all successful when I have tried meditation. I might feel anxious, unhappy or angry later on, but that's only once I start consciously playing back the situation in my head, usually after I have slept.

I've heard that it is common for epileptic people to have this kind of "rapture" following a seizure, but I don't think I've ever heard of this spoken about in relation to autism.

So I wonder, how do other people feel during the post-meltdown fatigue? Is this serene state common for you, or do you feel restless and agitated? Or something else entirely?

I normally end up feeling distressed afterwards, but too exhausted to do anything. Background anxious it's like a slow comedown for me and I feel odd and fuzzy for quite a while afterwards sometimes.

None of the above really. After fifteen or so minutes of behaving like a demented wild animal I usually just feel utterly exhausted. A hot bath followed by a long long sleep are what I need.

After that I usually just return to normal functioning as if nothing had happened. Normal for me that is.

I can remember when I was a teenager, I would have a huge cry about something, and then afterwards I would talk in a very babyish voice. I remember feeling kind of fuzzy and delicate, and just enjoying pretending to be like a baby or toddler. It felt kind of safe to do so.

My sister would tell me to stop being a baby, but even then I would still be doing baby voice in my head.