05 Mar 2018, 2:03 am
Today is one of those days, that really leaves me in a daze. It's one of those days where sounds are wrong, feelings are static, everything I am spiraling inward like a void filling up with everything but somehow remaining empty, full of nothingness.
Today is a day where I close my eyes at sounds, because for some reason they're so piercing that they travel in through my ears and stop at my corneas. Today is a day where I type out a bunch of words and none of them grasp what I even want to say. I feel like I'm filled up with weights but like I'm floating away.
Today is the kind of day, where I look to the world for help, from the silence of my bed. Laying there, in a daze of desperation, feeling depressed but somewhat complacent. Today is a non-people, non-verbal, full of weirdness again sort of day. Today is another lonely day, because if I tell you how I feel, you say you understand. But where I know you don't mean it, because every time someone has said that before, they're in my life no more.
Today is the type of day that makes me feel like I'm grasping at anything and anything to bring me back down.
Anyways, this is my first entry here and I'm sorry it isn't very good or grounded. I'm having a bad day and I feel like everything is kind of hazy and it's hard to formulate a thought. I felt so off today I even tried looking to see if anyone else had posted or felt something similar, but had no such luck, so perhaps I'll have better luck on here? I'm sorry if my point isn't clear, I have a hard time expressing my feelings and even identifying them. 
05 Mar 2018, 11:32 am
