I am really sorry this happened to you. I understand what that feels like. I have not had that exact thing happen in a forum but I have been brutally attacked in forums before and I have had close relationships treat me like s***. In fact, one of my close relationships is doing that to me now. And it hurts like so insanely bad. I also completely understand the hopeless feeling when you just don't see the point of living anymore. I have felt that way plenty of times. In fact, I was literally, just two hours ago, rehearsing how I was going to tell my psychologist that I don't see any point in trying to keep making efforts to sustain my life since I seem to be failing so miserably at every point. And even though the things I succeed at are great, they don't matter if I can't financially afford to stay alive.
So I totally understand what you might be feeling even if I don't know exactly what happened. I want you to know that you are not alone in this and I can now know that I am not either. We can hold on to each other and get through it together. I will keep checking this thread to see how you are doing and if you want to pm me that would be fine too. I am on the Eastern seaboard of the the United states so I am on Eastern Standard time. So I usually check the threads throughout the waking hours here. Feel free to pm if you like. I know you are hurting intensely. We will get through it together.
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"I'm bad and that's good. I'll never be good and that's not bad. There's no one I'd rather be than me."
Wreck It Ralph