Verdandi wrote:
Couple this with people seeing what they want to see: My therapist seems to think I do much better socially than I really do because I do decently in a one-on-one setting where I can talk to her about myself for an hour. Never mind that she constantly misreads my moods, intentions, and emotions, and keeps trying to do psychotherapy as she would with an NT, thus either confusing or frustrating me because we end up wasting time on therapy that sounds like it's more for her benefit than mine.
Er, anyway, what I mean is, I don't really know how severe or mild my autism is. I know what I can and can't do, and I know what, when I do it, will cost me in some way. I have no idea how to rate it and no way to work out how other people see me.
I am able to yap on about myself and my interests endlessly, I think only a fool would interpret with as good social skills.
"mild" is how funtioning you are, HFA is autism with a normal IQ and language delay, aspergers is autism with a normal IQ (and IQ tests are BS btw) and no language delay. So you can have someone with HFA who is reletively dependant and severe, maybe as bad as classic autism, and someone with aspergers who is severe.
So you can be high funtioning severe, high funtioning mild.
But it's pointless to think about it because the DSM is getting rid of this crap and replacing with severity labels alone, no more HFA or aspergers, just "severe ASD" "moderate ASD" "mild ASD".
I'm probably moderate or above
Verdandi wrote:
Since I am able to do so, I've been removing elements from my life that cause overload and shutdown, so while I may appear somewhat functional, my range of activity is pretty restricted. If I go beyond that range in certain ways, I may very well come off as being more severe.
I'm not really satisfied with my current solution, either.
I would appear as a lost child in a crowd and a boy genuis alone. The curse and gift of autism
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