The only major problem that still exists is that I'm still broken up between two sides. One side is the typical intense narrow minded hyper-reactive and hyper-plastic side, while the other is so quiet and peaceful the concept of change doesn't even compute to it because the only thing it understands is stability and familiarity. Every solution that I ever come up with to get these two sides to get along always ends up being one of those things that "works better in theory." I REALLY need people to give me as many different options having it both ways as they possibly can - I need to find JUST the right one