bobaspie2015 wrote:
Been some time since I have posted. Hope you guys are well.
You know I thought it was good to be Aspie (because we have so many strengths.)
You may say, 'Use the strengths you have in the work you do.'
I wish it was as simple as that.
I am having second thought after all these years. I mean being an Aspie has limited my life in so many ways, namely work.
I would rather remain inside my home, I am comfortable being at home.
Being at home does not bring me an income and so I have to go to work, the issue is, I only stay at any job for a few days or weeks.
I am so over this lifestyle to the point of wanting to end it all.
I feel the same way.
I feel like I am failing in so many aspects of my life that I can't even see the strengths of being an Aspie. I constantly make mistakes in relationships, school, and jobs - no matter how hard I try. It feels impossible to succeed. I feel like I cannot break through this barrier. Granted, I was just diagnosed so maybe I haven't had all of the proper supports in place to help me.
In some sense there is a comfort in knowing that I am an Aspie, because I can finally not feel alone in this daily struggle. But the diagnosis makes me sad at the same time. Especially that it wasn't caught earlier in my life and I've had so many awful things happen because of it.
I work with kids with severe autism and intellectual disabilities, so I understand it. But it's weird being on of them.