I don't know why but I seem to get feelings of jealousy that other people maybe younger than me 28, 27, 26, 25, 24, 23, 22, 21 or even 20 look like they are have achieved more than I have, been more successful than me, have better and more enjoyable lives and got the great jobs and careers they want in life and even run their own businesses. I think they all have their own cars and learnt to drive at 17 and I didn't get my car until 28 which I feel is 'abnormal' to me. It leaves me to feel that those people are better than I am and that I am a nobody and feel like I haven't done much. I'm 29 and I'm working as part time assistant and being doing it since April 2016, I feel like by 29, I should maybe be in a higher position in a job by now and run my own business and feel like I should have been a sales assistant 5 years ago. I left university in 2012 due to stress of the work and was out of work in 2012, 2013, 2014 and 2015 even though tried to find work, at times being picky, had a number of interviews and wasn't successful, went to attend different employment learning courses and had work experience before I got the job I'm in now. But I'm always feeling like I'm a bit behind life and that time is running out for me and that there are still things I need to do or should be doing by now which I'm not doing and trying fit it all in to the 20s and think by 30 and over its too late to learn and should not be doing the things I should be doing by that time. It makes me feel like in between 2012 and 2016, I've missed out on life and wasted my time.
07 Nov 2018, 3:23 pm
