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CubsBullsBears
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23 Jan 2021, 2:19 am

I have started to think more about how my mind works and all my emotional shortcomings that lead me to handle certain things, specifically how I react to unexpected things and things that could've been better if not for something that had happened. The pandemic is an obvious example. It seemed as if within a week of us realizing how serious it was, it seemed like everyone was just on board with what we were facing. I on the other hand, was feeling frusturated about all the things that weren't gonna happen, whether they affected me or not because what the pandemic was causing was something I've felt irate towards my whole life: negative changes and things not going as well as expected. Many, many people around the world had big planned that were sabotaged bc of COVID. Back in early May we went down to see my brother who lives in an assisted living house and we had to see him thru a window. I went back into the car after 20 seconds because I was so sick to my stomach about the unforseen circumtances. Meanwhile, my dad and my stepmom continued to stand outside and didn't seem emotionally bothered at all.

As you all can already see, I live in Iowa. I was flying back from Florida while the derecho was happening. We were right near the airport and then they announced that they were waiting for some weather to clear up and then they announced that they were taking us to St. Louis. I was so enraged. I had sent profanity and angry emoji-filled text messages to my mom and the one thing I did to sort of show how upset I was was tell my dad(in a negative, but quiet tone)that "this is all f***ed up. Even though I wasn't really making a scene, my dad got mad at me and as much as I didn't like his response, he wasn't wrong when he pointed out that no one else at the airport was acting like I was. We were there for an hour and a half before they flew us the rest of the way.

I think back to when my relationship with a girl ended a couple years ago because of her strict parents and how everyone was telling me to "move on" from it. I now think that maybe all that was said because society expects everybody to move on from things like that right away. But just like with the pandemic and my experience on the day of the derecho, it's not that simple for me. All I could think about was how things would be much better if her parents weren't so strict. How sad I think it is that innocent teenage love can be blocked because of one sides parents' bigotry. It's been more than 2 years now and while it's gotten better, that whole experience is still something that bothers me sometimes.

Does anyone on here struggle as much as I do to quickly adapt when things become less ideal that what you had in mind while others seem to be better at handling it? It doesn't seem to be very common with people I've known IRL.


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23 Jan 2021, 2:42 am

My tolerance for change can vanish if I have not had enough sleep.



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23 Jan 2021, 3:26 pm

I am awful about dealing with change in general, but if it's a kind of change that is less than idea, it's even worse.



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23 Jan 2021, 6:09 pm

I don't like unexpected change. It really throws me off kilter.


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23 Jan 2021, 10:01 pm

OHHHH boy. Unexpected change with me is... well okay, the really small ones I can just grumble and deal with it, but anything remotely big WILL cause outbursts and it pretty much takes all I have to avoid melting down. And will pretty much be the sole thing I can think about for DAYS, maybe even weeks.

Often people tell me to 'move on'. I don't see how they can even CONSIDER moving on so fast.



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24 Jan 2021, 1:30 am

FiruthiDragovic wrote:
OHHHH boy. Unexpected change with me is... well okay, the really small ones I can just grumble and deal with it, but anything remotely big WILL cause outbursts and it pretty much takes all I have to avoid melting down. And will pretty much be the sole thing I can think about for DAYS, maybe even weeks.

Often people tell me to 'move on'. I don't see how they can even CONSIDER moving on so fast.


That reminds me of watching Rain Man, and thinking "No way that guy can move out of an institution and be ready for a new adventure EVERY DAY."



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24 Jan 2021, 2:16 am

I don't like surprises



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24 Jan 2021, 2:19 am

In my life, all change is unexpected. I don't plan for any even thought I know it happens naturally.

I've never been good with change. I used to be afraid of New Year's because I hated the year changing.

I get very set in routines and sentimental about whatever's happened in the past.

The future, or any type of change (even minimal ones), totally throw me off until I adjust.


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