madbutnotmad wrote:
I am presently really concerned that i am going to kill someone ........... end up in prison on a life sentence,
..........................and i will then either commit suicide, be murdered or continue to kill people once psychotic .......
This is exactly the concerns I had when I was in my late teens except I didn't have a DX then.
As Ezra has said , get yourself a therapist if possible ( NHS is not perfect but you have to be persistent ).
I am not professionally qualified but your fears about killing someone seem to have an OCD flavour to them. Have you ever read about Harm OCD ?
https://www.intrusivethoughts.org/ocd-s ... /harm-ocd/
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