Mountain Goat wrote:
BenderRodriguez wrote:
LOL while I was posting, so were others, so here's your serious reply:
I don't think so. You're obviously struggling with a lot at this time and you're also discovering a lot. It's normal to have questions and it's a good time for self-reflection. I never think tl;dr (too long, didn't read it) with your posts, I just read them, even if I might not always have something to say.
That being said, don't take this the wrong way (it has nothing to do with the length of your posts anyway), I'm a bit worried about you - you seem under a lot of stress and strain. Be kind to yourself, balancing all this can be a very delicate act of juggling for us.
I have been under lots of strain in a pressureized way recently. Yesterday I found the waiting list to be assessed is twice as long in where I am then they origionally told me. Means that by the time I am assessed, there may not be people employed to assess as the world starts to finacially collapse etc...
At least the job ends tomorrow... One less struggle. It has been nice, but anxiety has been kicking in big time which means I am physically struggling.
The thing is, the shift goes from having anxiety, shutdowns etc when working where I am physically struggling, and when Iam not working the stress comes because I am not having an income. And I can't handle claiming for things.. I doubt I'd qualify... But the stress of it is more then I get then if I have no income, so I always head for the least stressful route. Which is not good for me in the long run, but it is looking after myself in the short term. I can't think long term these days.
I hear you. From what I've gotten from your posts lately, I think thinking short term is not a bad thing. Just administer your resources carefully and wisely until you "hit safe(er) waters". I understand you're worried about the future and I'm not dismissing that, I would just hate to see you adding worries to your plate right now, it can be a dangerous thing when you're kind of skirting the edge (of a burnout) anyway.
Edit: wow this thread is moving fast
- so catching up: I think unburdening yourself is good for you right now, you might consider posting more in the Haven.
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