So I recently made a thread about connecting to people which my NT friend saw. We talked for a bit and she suggested that I may actually be doing quite well and just not notice it because of my low mood and it hit me that it wouldn't be too crazy because after speaking to others, there have been many things I've missed along the years. The biggest was when a guy spent ages writing me a note with his mobile number on a calculator and I laughed, said it was cool and erased it.
Basically I realised that a lot of the negative things are probably completely in my head because when I look at the facts of my interactions, without my anxious interpretations, I may actually be doing OK. The things I'm interpreting as criticisms are probably just playful jokes, the annoyed expressions confusion or exhaustion and people probably aren't annoyed at me, they are just being neutral. In all honesty, people probably like me as they do try to keep up a conversation and are apparently pleased when I'm around.
I just thought this might be helpful for someone else to read because I was feeling awful last week, convinced everyone hated me and it seemed all very obvious. It made me feel absolutely awful to be honest and I was being brought to tears every single day. It was only when I talked it through I realised I was probably wrong and made the mistake of thinking I could interpret things properly.
06 Oct 2019, 8:00 am
