firemonkey wrote:
It's amazing how many parents can be critical of their child, without realising that their child might actually need some help and support .
Firstly I have loving parents though my Dad died over 10 years ago. However, scinarios can happen due to a lack of understanding.
Try having partial and full shutdowns through nearly all your life and not being able to describe them or know what that are. Right up to until the last few months I would get "Ignore it and it will go away" and "He always does this when we have work to do" and coments like that. Why? No one understood so they thouthr that either I was faking it, or I could somehow ignore it. They assumed it was some sort of dizzy moment. Even a past doctor was sayingfoe me to not stand up to quickly and always do things slowly as he assumed I was having a dizzy moment through standing up too quick. (Somehow I was never able to describe how it felt to have a partial shutdown or go into a shutdown. They were assuming it was a dizzy moment and I was prone to fainting etc, and doctors said it was the effects of "Some sort of allergy").
Due to the negative adpects of going through soo many negative comments I learnt to disguise the shutdowns. I would pretend I was out of breath and needed a break if I felt a full shutdown coming along, or if I was in a partial shutdown I would say some negative comment which would get someone to leave me alone for a while (Where in reality I wasn't like that, but I needed to withdraw to recover, and to have people around me trying to engauge me in conversation would send me into a shutdown). I lost count how many times I would be propping myself up against walls or something like that during a shutdown so it would appear as if I wasn't shutting down. The negative side of propping myself up would mean that recovery was delayed, and I was prone to having more shutdowns...
But I was soo good at hiding it that in a work enviroment, I would... Well. I had a deeper partial shutdown while I was on the shop floor where the customers are. I kneeled down and slouched forward (I could not lie down so it was the second best think as my body started to go limp) so it looked like I was sorting out the merchandise on the shelves. In reality I was very close to a full shutdown and I couldn't move from that position until I recovered. Unfortunately I upset a work collegue as I was starting to recover and he told me something and as I was recovering, my ability to comprehend spoken English was effected (Is as if they are speaking another language) and I asked for him to say it again about three times and he said "Do you understand"... And as I really was trying to prevent going into another shutdown/ partial shutdown I said "Yes" just so he could leave me be.
Sadly, the result of this was I had not heard the information, which resulted in me doing something which he had said not to do and unfortunately I got him into trouble. (Fortunately all sorted at a much later date where I went in and explained a month or two after the job had ended).
My "Now" time memory is often effected while recovering from shutdowns but surprizingly my long term memory can recall every detail at a much later date. Hence why a few months after I realized what had happened, and I could recall every word... But until the long term memory of my mind was able to come into play, I didn't know what had happened. I was like "Why is he avoiding me?" It was like I had a rough idea but didn't have the details so I could apologize or explain so I could set things straight.
Anyway. I am talking on tangents again... Your turn!