What do you want to do and what's holding you back?

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It seems that many of you would like to do certain things in life (more than you are currently doing) but you feel that these things are out of your reach in some way because of your AS etc. You are often very vague about these things though so it's hard to get a clear picture of exactly what you want to do and what it is precisely that you feel is preventing you from doing so.

I have felt like asking various people this question in various threads when they have brought up a fairly ambiguous ambition and accompanying problem, but it would be too messy and off-topic to post this question all over the place, so if it's not too personal I'd like to hear about it in this thread.

Due to the limitations of text I may have come across in my previous posts as some mindless positive thinker, the generic kind who make stupid books about blind hope when they have no idea what they're talking about, but that's not the case at all, I just believe that it really serves no purpose to give up on something when the only alternative is miserable anyway, which I've learned through my own countless struggles, and I believe that for any reasonable goal there must logically be the possibility for a well thought-out plan which can potentially be followed to achieve it, even if that plan may be so difficult to follow that it seems unreasonable to try.

I have no doubts that you have all thought long and hard about your goals and considered ways to achieve them, I'm not going to try to pretend to be some egotistical miracle-worker who thinks he has the answers to all your seemingly impossible problems, but I'd like to know what these impossible problems involve, and I think that if they are laid out in enough detail perhaps someone somewhere may be able to throw out an idea which someone else never thought of yet. It may still seem patronizing in spite of that but oh well.

(Alternatively: Have you ever thought something would be impossible and tried it anyway? That would also be interesting to hear about.)

hello fellow
making any plan and then being able to follow it are about as different as pregnant and almost pregnant.

I want to drive really fast to put it in simple terms.

Money is the only thing holding me back.

i want to have a private harem but the fates hold me back.

I want a car, and a driver's license, but the thing that's holding me back, is the lack of money that I receive and make. If I could only win one of the $50 Lotto Max jackpots, than I can have everything, that I've always wanted.

I couldn't agree more with the OP.

I want to be rich, so I'm taking business and economics courses so I may eventually get a job at Goldman Sachs or somewhere similar. Either that or I'll just start my own hedge fund. Or I'll do something completely different. If it makes money, I'll it.

I wanted to be a filmmaker since i was in highschool, but there are no film schools in my country so i studied engineering . Now i am living in a country where there are many filmschools and i just don't know what to do with all the years of study i spent.

Should i throw those years to the garbage can ? I admit that it is hard to forget about filmmaking at all, but the years i spent studying engineering and all the things i learned are holding me back.

So please give me advice.

I have generally operated on shorter term goals.

the main obstacle always - time.

Either I have no time - intrusions rising like clouds of mosquitos to bite me - or the time is not ripe.

When time comes together, things happen - big time.

I want to be an opera singer. I have been told I have a world class voice and all that.

People are holding me back. I get affected and confused by them. I'm scared.

I've just always ended up always staying home.

I guess money kind of stops me as well. But I really don't think that's the main issue.
At least now I'm learning how I function. I can't accomplish anything if I don't know how I work.

This is kind of long and rambling but it may be useful for those pursuing creative goals.

I have done things that many people would consider a dream goal.

For a brief time I was working as a freelance photographer. I was shooting for magazines and I did all the photography for a book of interior design ideas called "Family Spaces" I did a couple more book projects etc, but the difficulty of social interaction made the work too stressful. It's annoying because I enjoyed the photography side of it and I don't think it's excessively boastful to say I did a pretty good job, but I would become so anxious about how to deal with clients and subjects that I resisted taking on jobs even when art directors were calling, trying to get me to work for them.

I tend to be quite good at analysis of problems. In setting up a photography career, I determined what the market wanted and what I could do that the market wanted. I was lucky to find a good teacher and I learned what I needed to know about commercial work. I practiced and honed my skills in the area that I knew I could work in. I researched which magazines paid well and targeted them. In the end I met the goals I had set out to achieve and was only foiled by one thing I had not considered - my discomfort in dealing with people.

Lately I have been thinking about trying the same analytical process to build up a film making career or hobby. It's a much harder goal, but since I'm not too concerned whether it becomes a paying job or is just for fun, I can follow it, see where it goes and modify my goals depending upon circumstances.

I think an area that can cause problems for people (I know it has for me) is in becoming demoralized from criticism and even the slightest set backs. I know people who are no where near as good as I am in certain skills and yet they do better because they just keep going despite being told their work isn't good enough. I tend to obsess about any suggestion that I am incompetent and lose momentum needed to keep working.

I think one of the great keys to success is maintaining a positive outlook; believing that the work you do will actually pay off. This attitude can be hard to maintain when those around you tell you how they would do it differently or how they know a "real photographer" or a "real writer" etc.

It is easy for Aspies to feel a purvasive sense of failure when they grow up being told everything they do is wrong. It takes a huge effort to maintain the artificial attitude that "I can do this" About 10 years ago when I was learning the commercial work and developing that career, I had a number of people around me to supported and encouraged me. But now I work with a small number of people who are not as encouraging.

I guess feeling like I failed at photography and having lost some of the support I got for it, I currently feel it is quite a struggle to accomplish much smaller goals. But it can be done. I think it would help to work with other people who might be supportive. I also need to WORK at maintaining a positive and hopefull attitude. There is no single thing I can do that will improve my situation, but there are a number of small things I can do that will help.

Getting a better job by going to school but what holds me back is my anxiety and my learning difficulties.

I wanted to be an actress but after hearing how they get no privacy and how they get grabbed and pulled and screamed at and crowded. Also after hearing how their yard gets torn apart, forget it. I don't want all that attention and be talked about in the magazines about my personal life and have everyone know I had a argument with my husband or how I haven't spoken to him in days. Plus the anxiety about how to even get started and ending up homeless because I used up all the money down there from food and shelter. Then coming online and having to lie about myself because I seriously doubt anyone on here would believe I am that actress and getting banned from forums because the mods would think I was someone impersonating a celebrity. I would always have to go through all this crap proving I am for real by using web cams and other pictures with my username in it to show it's really me so the mods wouldn't ban me and see I am a genuine person. It would be very limited to what I can say about myself online and about my life. Plus going on forums and IMDB and seeing the bad talk about me. Talk about celebrity bashing. I even wonder if Hilary Duff went anorexic due to being called fat online by a bunch of strangers. Duh, she can go on the IMDB board about her and see all that stuff being said. She really did have an eating disorder and lost weight and was too thin. I thought it was sad and I thought if she did it because she felt she had to do it to impress people and not be called fat anymore. Also in Hollywood you have to wear a size 0 or you're fat. I'd be considered fat.

I still wouldn't mind being an extra but it's hard to hear about when movies are being filmed here and when auditions are going on and the fact a local extra company here charges you money for it so you get a higher chance to be chosen as an extra and also I work and pretty soon I am going to be a mother. I don't see how I would have time to be on the set all day waiting. It be even harder when you have a child.

I want the moon on a stick and I think the thing that is holding me back is my stick is long enough but my ladder isn't.

I want to grow a thicker skin, but my brain wiring is holding me down. Also conditioned responses to my upbringing, engrained in my brain, numerous memories and the way my brain processes outward and inward stimuli.

Brain chemistry in short.

I'm not sure what is holding me back. I honestly think my extreme anxiety is WAY worse than ANY aspieness.

I think it's more of how I want to LIVE and what I want to DO.....I don't want a job description to be...ME.... (don't know if any of that made sense)....Working in a suit in a corporate cubicle..... and being constantly interrupted sounds like prison to me:

- I would like to make a decent salary/wage working remotely anywhere (if I decide I wanna live on the west coast for awhile...then buh-bye....wanna try something else......buh-bye)

-I love information/research and helping people.....(I know it's very broad but I always liked computers and business)

- I want to travel --- see something outside of the U.S.

- I want to do GOOD -- help people in someway (not for recognition, I really don't care if my name is in the paper --if fact, I rather it wasn't)

- I know "things" don't make you happy but I wouldn't mind be comfortable.

But, I will probably work for the DMV to get my revenge on humanity.....
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My own apartment and not a second rental.

All i need is roughly $25K for the deposit. Currently saving up so maby in 2 years...