I almost can't believe I feel like this.. it's not like, when faced with football e.g. I feel anything but bored... but somehow, this other thing which is full of numbers and technical details... I feel depressed. On its own I wouldn't, but I do due to related issues... but it's so stupid that I associate random numbers with something that makes me so depressed I'm sometimes distracted while watching movies etc... I've went somewhere wrong in my life, I swear...