Jakki wrote:
"dance like you have no cares"
Good advice if you can do it. Me, although I have a healthy disrespect for what people might think of me, and would defend with my dying breath the individual's right to do whatever they liked as long as it was harmless, I can't seem to shake the feeling that I need to avoid doing anything that would go down badly. The exception is when I think they've got some daft prejudice or other that angers me. In that case I might well do something just to show them we don't all cow-tow to their nonsense. But otherwise, I'm usually sensitive to looking stupid, mean, uncaring, or weird. I don't get particularly fraught or anxious about it, I just habitually keep a strong check on my behaviour (least said, soonest mended), and I keep getting the feeling that I might have unwittingly annoyed whoever I've been around. If only people would come clean about what they think of each other more often and just say when I've hurt their feelings or otherwise annoyed or scared them, I'd probably feel a lot more confident in their company, but I've seen how they can pretend everything's fine until a person isn't around, and how they can then start to find fault with them behind their back, and I've noticed that even people who don't backbite like that can get upset about somebody's behaviour but fail to challenge them until they can't stand it any more.