Have you ever felt that the world forces you to be Neurotypical or act like one because they cannot accept you for being autistic?
Have you had accussations of it just being a personality disorder and that you could change your autism if you just changed your belief system or personality?
Have you been expected to hate yourself for not liking the same things as a neurotypical such as hours of social chit chat?
Its not that I have anything against it its that I find it exhausting but I can't get anyone to understand. They keep acting as if I could change it and suddenly become a social butterfly.
I am expected to hate myself because I don't know how to initiate and carry on conversations in the real world, or because I can't think of anything to say when I do socialise. People want me to socialise all day everyday even when I am tired and need rest, my liking my special interests is apparently a crime.
On top of that I am shy and have that difficulty as well.
I feel as though the world is punishing me for being autistic.
I would want to socialise more if it was not so difficult but everything I do is wrong and I am tired of being screamed at by people or accussed of things I have not done. They are making neurotypicals look paranoid, as if they are all mentally ill as everytime you make a social error they accuse you having done it on purpose even when you did not.
They are obsessed with insisting you should hate yourself for not being normal.
And at the same time they expect me to like them...
Has the neurotypical population gone insane?
22 Mar 2021, 10:00 pm
