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Getting issues with my short term memory. My Mum is as well.
I have plastic panels underneath my car. I have several of the fastners missing, so I went to a shop I worked in and bought two packets. Because the guy at the till forgot to add the discount until after, he messed up the till receipt and gave me the wrong one, and he binned the right receipt.
Unfortunately the fastners are too small to fit.
OK. So instead of the 17 mile drive each way I now have about 40 to 45 miles drive each way to get the right fastners so none of rhe panels start to come lose and get damaged. So I drove all the way up to the dealer which involves twisty countryside roads and asked if they had them.
They usually keep them in stock but they didn't have any, so they had to order them.
So another 90 mile round trip I made to get them.
I wasn't up to crawling underneath the car due to stress and needing to be driving my Mum around, and my brothers going through a tough patch etc... Well. This evening I decided to get the fastners ready so I can use them. I left them in the car because I know if I put them somewhere else I will not find them.
Well. Do you think I can find them? I have even checked the spare wheel. Nothing whatsoever.
So as I hate phoning, it is going to be two more 90 mile trips to order and then get some more before rhe panels get damaged.
I have started looking through everything in my bedroom. My Mums checking everything downstairs. I will have to pay out for two trips and another £6 to £7. For the fastners if I don't find them.
And while I have been looking for them twice I have lost my torch. What is wrong with me?

Anyone else have these moments?

Just some plans that I made not working and some technical issues.

I think I ought to post here daily, as at least one thing a day stresses me out.

did you find them?

Something small: I went to the cinema and it was pretty full. A guy I didn't know sat next to me. So I had that to think about during the movie.

Something small but I will have to go to the big city ext month and not only that, go up to the fourth floor of the building. I hope they have stairs as I don't do lifts. All will be ok I'm sure.

The pharmacy where I get my prescriptions did not had one in stock. In fact, the pharmacy has not had it in stock for almost a week even though my doctor is okay with me getting a different medication until the problem is fixed.

Being in a noisy room, and not being in the mood to socialize.

Also being facetimed by someone. Him and I are FRIENDS and nothing more, but apparently, in this day and age males and females can't be "just friends" without people assuming and thus making a *bleep* out of you and me.

He is on the spectrum too and we have all of these in-jokes. There are a lot of situations, where I feel forced to act serious and can't quite be myself, but I like that I have someone who I can be random with and won't judge and I can let my true self out. But we ARE just friends, just because I'm on the spectrum doesn't mean I can't tell the difference between a just-friend situation and dating situation. But other people assume it's more than just friendship because of how goofy we get but that is not flirting or chemistry in my book.

I have been worrying about finding the right person and I don't want a romantic relationship revolving around "lulz randumb" and nothing else, and it makes me feel bad that people think I deserve a romantic relationship based around solely that. On the friendship level, okay but there is also an attraction element that I want, and someone who I can have a deeper discussion with when it comes to a romantic relationship. There is a whole list of things that set a line between dating and friendship for me and qualities that I look for in a person in a romantic partner that differ from just a friend. I've been worrying about having little dating experience at this point in life and other people's assumptions have made talking to him awakward.

Christmas.

Coughing and getting sick

Surprised that I didn't get sick earlier

Caregiver fatigue

Dirty s**t I have to touch to do the job

Eating badly

Cold temperature

Wet in rain

Not enough sleep

I saw just seconds of clear video of a column of refugees, and it reminded me of times I've had to move on with what I could grab. I've worked most of my life to prevent refugee-causing situations, yet I'm sitting here making things worse with my furnace more than once an hour. I don't know if I should work on reducing my footprint, or work on the overall system. Either way, I'm likely to hit walls of misunderstanding, repeating frustrating old patterns.