Anyone here feel totally hate their condition?

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I hate my condition and I feel I'm not a good person because I have major low self esteem issues. Anyone here feel similar?

I generally feel frustrated by my autism, mostly for the sensory overwhelm it brings, which can be bothersome and impacts pretty much everything, including employment opportunities etc.

You're not alone. ASD is very trendy now, but it's not as cool as many would have you think it is. There are many negative aspects to having this condition. There's loneliness, not being understood, and unemployment, just to name a few. Unfortunately, there's no way out of it, so we all have to make the best of it, whether we're happy with it or not. I find that it helps to focus on the positives... I enjoy being engaged in my special interest(s), being an independent thinker, and adhering to strict moral principles.

Yeah it's affecting EVERYTHING from finding love to getting a job/career!

I don't really hate my condition

Realizing what I have has brought me a lot of peace and a lot of wanting to work on my self-acceptance

What I do dislike (I don't use the word "hate" lightly) is how everyone around me expects me to be NT or mask my ND

I mean

Why? Why do I have to change to be a part of the NT world? Why can't I be accepted as I am?

It took a long time, but after a number of decades I concluded I was not the problem...the world was the problem.

Um...there is still a problem, however. I don't think it's my fault, but I am the victim.

There is time were I wish I was normal were I could be driving a car by now and have a job some time ago. However my autism is overall a blessing and a curse at times. I am able to help out the younger ones in my family that have Autism themselves.

Kenny has the answer...



I woke up this mornin' with the sundown shinin' in
I found my mind in a brown paper bag within
I tripped on a cloud and fell-a eight miles high
I tore my mind on a jagged sky
I just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in
I pushed my soul in a deep dark hole and then I followed it in
I watched myself crawlin' out as I was a-crawlin' in
I got up so tight I couldn't unwind
I saw so much I broke my mind
I just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in
Someone painted "April Fool" in big black letters on a dead end sign
I had my foot on the gas as I left the road and blew out my mind
Eight miles outta Memphis and I got no spare
Eight miles straight up downtown somewhere
I just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in
I said, I just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in
Yeah
Yeah
Oh-yeah


Darron

I use to hate myself, if i knew about ND back then I would hate the condition.

But on reflection all hatred stems outwardly from others perceptions and behaviour towards me which i have internalised.

If society was accepting or perhaps kinder to children growing up quirky. I most likely would embrace and probably love what i hated.

Nowadays, i feel people have more of an issue with me then i do haha

I think I hate depression much more than autism ... even though the two often go together too much.

I especially hate the fact that I'm not able to have a life and autonomy like everyone else AND the fact that public institutions or structures are too broken to help me and others.

Nope.

I could do without the Misophonia and Photophobia, though.

Yes and what's worse we to deal with a trojan horse movement that wants to drown our voices and our suffering in sugar coated BS.

It's all a double-edged sword.

I kinda like being autistic, I must admit. But the sensory issues suck.