anniversaries
the most recent time i ate chocolate: august 15, 2022. over two years.
trying to reach other milestones/anniversaries: september 2 (dropped too date 2022) (car crash date 2010)
hacker's day (september 11, 2023)
four year work anniversary home depot (october 8, 2024)
"life" has been rapidly going sideways for a longfuck time and i am afraid that i will soon end up homeless, and with plenty of incurred unpaid medical bills, s**t.
past couple of days, bowel movements have been like having heart attacks, and giving birth to children. (not that i know what that's like, but it's what i would imagine it's like). and I SERIOUSLY CANNOT continue defecating like this. i am terrified of getting a colonoscopy, but i do not have much recourse. s**t.
colonoscopy fear:
$$$$
that i will fail to adhere to the diet
colonoscopy prep
that i will defecate in the car or on the bus on the way to the colonoscopy
colonoscopy, something will go wrong with it, or the doctor will cancel it
the driver (a coworker), will gossip about the colonoscopy to other coworkers
colonoscopy pain
faint after colonoscopy
colon cancer and s**t
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Age: 67
Gender: Male
Posts: 36,253
Location: Long Island, New York
colonoscopy fear:
$$$$
that i will fail to adhere to the diet
colonoscopy prep
that i will defecate in the car or on the bus on the way to the colonoscopy
colonoscopy, something will go wrong with it, or the doctor will cancel it
the driver (a coworker), will gossip about the colonoscopy to other coworkers
colonoscopy pain
faint after colonoscopy
colon cancer and s**t
I have gone through a number of colonoscopies and have another one scheduled for a month from now.
The prep is difficult but very temporary.
I would advise buying adult diapers. They run about $20 on Amazon. I only have had only one accident. It is a watery mess to clean up so it is best to overcome the stigma of wearing a diaper.
Pretty much everyone at your age and over has routine colonoscopy's. Pretty much everyone else that has not knows multiple people who have so I doubt the driver will gossip.
You are administered Anesthesia during the procedure so no pain.
If you can I would take the next day off. The prep does put your body through a workout. The different diet also tires you out. If you receive general anesthesia that still might be wearing off.
As far as fear of them finding something or something going wrong everybody fears that and if they say they don’t they are lying.
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DSM 5: Autism Spectrum Disorder, DSM IV: Aspergers Moderate Severity
“My autism is not a superpower. It also isn’t some kind of god-forsaken, endless fountain of suffering inflicted on my family. It’s just part of who I am as a person”. - Sara Luterman
spoiled upper middle class brats day, september 9
half birthday, september 11
brandon's birthday, september 19 (considering posting a long essay on the wall of his Facebook, but do not want my assembly line to read it and then have the nerve to make my worthless corpse redundant. and do not want kayla b***h's "volunteers" to take out revenge on me (rolls eyes)
old woman's death day, september 22
october 30, old woman's birthday
11/25, old mans birthday
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craving chocolate a lot.
"life" has gone sideways and s**t:
hours cut @ work
litterboxing difficulties
new and annoying head cashiers and supervisors
exhausted all the time (not new, since 13)
worried about sister selling house (not new, since 40)
worried about weight (not new, since 12)
physically getting weaker (since 30, now 41)
some articles say that chocolate stimulates the same part of the brain as love, s**t.
"thin line between love and hate"