When I gain weight, that's all I can think about.
Stress, emotional overeating
Thinking about gaining weight makes me wanna eat more.
health only going to get worse, 41 years old. dyssergenic defecation. bowel movements take 15-30 minutes and sometimes fail. Straining. gastroenterologist told me to get a colonoscopy and i haven't done it b/c afraid of physical pain. excretory system, and the rest of my worthless corpse, rapidly getting weaker and slower physically and mentally.
my dumpsterfire "job" could make my worthless corpse redundant @ any time, for any reason or no reason, without notice. besides, it's just minimum wage and part time
nervous disposition
zero "friends". "parents" dead a longfuck time ago. zero kids. no car. no cash.
constantly afraid of: identity theft, coronavirus, dogs, cars, physical/sexual assault, fat, disability