Serious problems with anxiety, procrastination and school.

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Not sure if it's the right place to post, but I've had a very bad meltdown just a while ago and still trying to cope. I've hyperventilated, couldn't speak, it was hard for me to breathe..
This text can be a little confusing and disorganized. I need to pour everything out somewhere. So excuse me if it is a little confusing or I haven't included much details. Now I just need to calm down and start this thread in order to start dealing with this problem. Otherwise I might forget about that. I am sorry for my horrible grammar at the moment. I can not think at all. I will come back tomorrow or so, when I'm calmer, and specify certain things.

I am having terrible problems with anxiety. It seems that I operate on anxiety. I can forget even the most elemental things while I'm anxious. This became especially bad when my exams started to approach. I couldn't do them because of the anxiety. Now I was given a second chance, and I did really stupid mistakes there, because of anxiety. I couldn't concentrate. I felt like giving up. As soon as it begun, I couldn't stop myself. Tried to calm down, analyze my thoughts, but it came back and intensified. This anxiety is slowly destructing my life. I am not sure what I should do. I've been spinning and rocking excessively for the past 2 hours, and I was spinning and humming in school as long as my parents arrived and took me back home. I can not stop it. Now I had a meltdown, I was crying, all of these crippling panicking emotions, I'm feeling so, so tired at the moment.

I can not type about anything else. What should I do now? Have any of you had success with anything else than medication? I am afraid to try medication. I do not want to live on pills. I want to know what are the other possibilities. I've tried yoga, and it didn't help me as much... I'd like to hear anything. I really need help Thank you so much everyone..

Sounds like what you really need is a professional, but what I will say is this:

I really screwed up in high school, but I am still here and have had many worthwhile and wonderful experiences that I wouldn't have had if I had got great marks.

I'd really like to know the experience of other autistics. My psychologist and psychiatrist suggest medication only..

Meditation works. Yoga is another good tool for anxiety. Personally, I took up the classical guitar and focus on that for an hour or more a day and that has helped me tremendously with anxiety. Also, the more I stay in the house and avoid people and the world, the harder the world and people are to me so I try to find a healthy balance between being alone and being out and about.

Esh,

What kfisher said about the guitar being its own calming form of meditation is really similar to my own experience playing the piano! I can't even play it that well but in the times of my greatest anxiety when absolutely nothing else would make me feel okay, playing the piano/keyboard immediately calmed me down. It takes all your concentration and the rhythmic soothing musical patterns lead your mind out of whatever distressing pattern it was in before.