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41, always been single
zero children
zero "friends". autistic and misanthropic.
coworkers annoying lil dipshits
sister's out of town until next wednesday or so but she has her own family so she hasn't been inviting me either
old man and old woman dead

but thanksgiving is just one day. and thursdays (and mondays) are my scheduled days off work.

library closed. nothing to do. i am bored, sick and tired of everyone and everything, especially my dumbf**k self, s**t.

zero hobbies, no car, no $$$
deteriorating, rotting, decomposing in my stupidass pigpen

You might consider volunteering to visit someone in a retirement home if you could muster up some cheer to share.

Being alone is far superior than being with someone who makes you miserable.

Volunteer work might be able to take you out of yourself as you sound like you are sinking into a destructive self-focus and approaching bitterness.

You can't do much about the middle one, but if you worked on your misanthropy you might be able to make some friends.

If you're that miserable with the way things are, you're really not risking much if you try to make a change.

Go to the movie theater?

Double retired

My only source of income is minimum wage and part time. Might get made redundant any day now.

Movies too expensive and can't be justified in the current situation

Even groceries and health insurance are way too expensive

Depending on where you live, there might be a "Soup kitchen" giving out Thanksgiving dinner to the destitute and you could probably volunteer to help with them. At least you wouldn't be alone and they would probably give you a free dinner as well.

That's probably the route that I'd recommend. Even if actual cooking isn't in the OP's skill set, at least it's an option for the holiday rather than being stuck alone. Either way, at least it would be a choice.

While I will not be spending Thanksgiving alone, I will be spending it in a country that does not observe it.

Your writing style is compelling. Every post is consistent: dark, stark and morose. You paint a vivid picture. I am reminded of Lovecraft's stories. You seem like one of the characters that Cthulu might reach out to and bless with powers and abilities.

You might enjoy going out to a park for a walk. That is what I do. Another idea is to write some more, because you clearly enjoy writing and seem to have a knack for it. What is more, you somehow snare people into replying to your posts, and that implies a certain amount of skill on your part.

For me, Thanksgiving is just something that happens to other people. I guess I can't be expected to understand it, being from the UK originally. I hope tomorrow turns out to be just another day for me. Mind you, it's much the same for Xmas and my birthday. All year round I do what I can every day to keep my pains to a minimum and to try to be as comfortable and happy as possible. To some extent I succeed. I don't see how deviating from that, just because somebody says it's a special day, could do me any good.

Anyway, I'd advise the OP to try not to worry about it. Ultimately it's no different to any other day except that the shops are closed and a lot of people are doing something unusual. They might seem very cosy together, but I expect a lot of them are bored out of their minds and just wish it was over. Whatever the case, I don't envy them.

Plant an indoor garden using seed from what you eat anyway and containers from found-or-recycled objects and dirt from around where you live? Thanksgiving is about thanking God for a good harvest and all other good gifts.

Make some up-cycle (reuse and recycle to build yourself and your world up) crafts? A mosaic out of glass and stone found in your area? Google for other ideas. Might even make som things nice enough to sell.

My church has a Thanksgiving dinner for anyone and everyone. It is potluck but there is always so much food one extra guy would be welcome. No cost. If you are anywhere near eastern Pennsylvania, I can PM you info. You could call around churches and hospitals in your area (if not) and ask if they know about anything. You could also ask about free support groups. Another church group in my area helps people who are unemployed or under-employed. I have participated in the past.

https://www.feedingamerica.org/need-hel ... anksgiving

Family - any aunts, uncles, cousins, etc? Might be time to reconnect?

Volunteer (several people have already said). Even though you are in a bad place some people are in a worse place. Helping them might help you.

Sign up for a free trial of Disney+ or NetFlicks and bing-watch some stuff then cancel the subscription. Freevee has a bunch of old shows and movies even some new ones free-with-ads - no dollar cost above your internet access. Pluto.tv too. Others similar streaming content sites. Or take some free online video courses like Kahn Academy. My son is learning Spanish for free with Duo Lingo’s website.

Google “free online thanksgiving event”.

Think about how “aloneness isn’t necessarily loneliness”. Try to recall times you have been alone but didn’t feel lonely.

Zero-Dollar Indoor Garden Instructions

1. Collect Seeds from Food You Eat
Save seeds from fruits and vegetables you regularly consume. Some great options include:
- Tomatoes: Scoop out seeds and rinse off the pulp.
- Bell Peppers: Remove seeds from the core.
- Citrus Fruits: Dry seeds from lemons, oranges, or grapefruits.
- Avocados: Use the large pit.
- Potatoes: Save ones that have sprouted "eyes."
- Garlic: Separate cloves.
- Herbs: Save basil, cilantro, or dill stems with seeds attached.

Tip: Dry seeds on paper towels for a day or two to prevent mold.

2. Prepare Found Containers
Look around your home for potential planters. Some options include:
- Plastic Bottles or Jugs: Cut in half to make planters.
- Food Containers: Yogurt cups, takeout boxes, or egg cartons.
- Tin Cans: Punch drainage holes in the bottom.
- Toilet Paper Rolls: Use as biodegradable seed starters.
- Old Bowls or Cups: Add stones at the bottom for drainage.

3. Make Potting Soil
If you don’t have store-bought soil, create a basic mix using:
- Compostable Food Scraps: Blend vegetable peels, coffee grounds, or eggshells into a fine paste.
- Garden Soil: Collect from outside, if accessible.
- Old Plant Soil: Revitalize by mixing with food scrap compost.

Optional: Sterilize outdoor soil by baking it in a thin layer at 180°F (80°C) for 30 minutes to kill pests.

4. Plant the Seeds
- Fill containers with your prepared soil.
- Plant seeds at a depth twice their size (e.g., 1/4 inch for small seeds, 1 inch for larger ones).
- For sprouting potatoes or garlic, bury halfway with the sprouted side facing up.

5. Watering and Light
- Water: Keep the soil moist but not soggy. Use leftover water from cooking or rinsing dishes.
- Light: Place containers near a sunny window or use reflective surfaces (like aluminum foil) to maximize light.

6. Create a Mini Greenhouse (Optional)
Cover containers with plastic wrap or use clear lids from food packaging to trap moisture and heat. Remove once seedlings sprout.

7. Maintenance
- Prune and Thin: Remove weaker seedlings to allow stronger ones to thrive.
- Feed Plants: Use DIY compost tea made from soaking vegetable scraps in water for a few days.
- Support Growth: Use sticks or old chopsticks as plant stakes if needed.

8. Expand with Kitchen Scraps
Regrow plants from scraps you already have:
- Green Onions: Place the white root end in water.
- Lettuce or Celery: Submerge the base in shallow water.
- Carrot Tops: Place the cut top in water for greens.
- Pineapple Tops: Peel back lower leaves and plant in soil.

9. Decorate with Found Objects
- Paint containers with leftover paint or markers.
- Use twine or fabric scraps to wrap pots for decoration.

10. Harvest and Recycle
- Harvest greens, herbs, or fruits as they grow.
- Compost plant waste to enrich future soil.

By following these steps, you can create a sustainable indoor garden without spending any money.

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the public library had a list of soup kitchens for thanksgiving. i took a photo. they are all too far away from my house by public transportation. thanksgiving is just one meal. besides, waiting in line, and do not know what they are serving. volunteered @ soup kitchens a couple times, a couple years ago. nothing bad or wrong about it, but do not wanna go again. granted, i do not know how to cook, but plenty of people volunteer @ soup kitchens without actually "cooking" per se. they transport the food, wash dishes, etc.

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fenn

a couple years ago, i went to a lot of support groups: sangha, Self Maintenance and Recovery Training, twelve steps, ANRED. they were nice and good until some precious lil "people" started being "true to themselves". manipulative and condescending, annoying lil dipshits. they made vague statements like "we care about you," but the idiot that had the nerve to tell me that, had been in the same support group with me for over two years and had barely even greeted me once. (rolls eyes). the concept of a support group is good, but not that many good support groups out there. that's like saying, when you are hungry, you need food. mcdonalds sells food, but not nutritious. in that situation, it is not justified to lump all "food" together in one category, even though "you need food" is factually correct.
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gentleman

i've gone to plenty of parks, many times. there was nothing bad or wrong about it, just nothing that great either. plenty of people have told me i am a great writer, but it is not possible to measure writing skill.

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double

movies too expensive. only earn minimum wage and might get made redundant any day now. s**t

That's a fair point. It may legitimately be the best just to get whatever food you like and find some place online to hang out with whatever other folks don't have more specific plans.

MatchboxVagabond


surfed internet, same websites as usual today

safeway. two loaves of roasted cheese Artisan bread, one tempeh, two pieces of jalepeno cheddar bread

appetite gone haywire

felt like gorging

ate too much. ate four extra servings (about 400 calories extra). but it's thanksgiving and i am 41 years old and that is old as f**k so what the flying f**k ever s**t.