embe wrote:
Before I knew about ASD I thought it was something peculiar and that I only needed to find myself in the right circumstance, but guess what? I never "engineer" such circumstance. It's been years now, and I do not want to do it in front of other people.
Only now I realize that this is a sad thing. Isn't it? Anyone else experiencing something similar?
I only see it as sad in the sense that what you're doing doesn't have a social dimension, though I guess the animals will serve the purpose, and for all I know dancing alone with animals might not be the only dancing you ever do. But at any rate it's harmless and that's all that matters to me when I'm judging whether something is wrong or not.
Personally I haven't danced for a long time, though I kind of rock my guitar around a bit when I'm performing if it's safe to do so without making the music sound worse or crashing into something. With me the sound takes top priority because I practically live and breathe music, though I'd move about more if I ever thought I could add that extra dimension to the performance.
I had quite a bit of fun in the 1990s doing dancing lessons with a female friend. I think the most modern thing we did was rudimentary rock and roll, and that suited me because I don't personally relate to anything more modern. I liked the way the 12-bar music cycled round so you were doing 3/4 but after 4 rounds you got back to where you started. I was never all that good at it. Poor co-ordination I guess, though I've always felt I could be good if I made it a special interest. For some reason I have very little interest in watching people dance, except to judge how good they are, though I like it when there's a ceilidh or a barn dance, and sometimes a few people do tap dancing or jigs. I like to see puppets dance.