pyraxis wrote:
DeepThought wrote:
...if I was in a specific conversation with someone and see them listed as online I will think that person no longer wishes to discuss it, or just doesn't like me anymore. Then a range of emotions set in....
If I'm online and not answering a specific conversation, it has nothing to do with not liking anyone - it's about time. As in, the more I care about the conversation, the more time I want to think about the reply and post something substantial instead of tossing out a few random words.
Either that or I'm just plain busy.
Yeah, see that's the catch and from what I understand is a great example of some of the co-morbid stuff I have going on. I am fully aware that people are busy, or just aren't online, or are away from the computer, or whatever, but that doesn't ease the turmoil. When I posted that, I was not refering to anyone specific because with me there are no exemptions, no exceptions to the rules that govern my thoughts and emotions. It refers to everyone I interact with and at the same time, no one at all, if that makes sense, which it probably doesn't...
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