Greentea, that is something I ponder on as well. They say
beauty is only skin deep. I am not sure if you meant physical
beauty or inner beauty or both. My personal experience was
that I always felt ugly, even though I was told that I was
attractive, desirable, and cute. Not the word beautiful very
often though. I always felt as though I was an ugly duckling
even though I was not treated as such. I wanted inner beauty
very much. Outer beauty was not my goal, never has been, never
will be.
I was more shallow, mostly from lack of experience I guess
inwardly, than I am now, so I would say ironically, when I was
young, attractive, desirable, and cute, I had no concept or
appreciation of it. I never could believe it. Now I am not
young, attractive or desirable. I have,however gained more
depth and character of personality because of my life
experiences. I would say that I have traded my outer
physical beauty for inner beauty, but I have never had
the experience of having, being told, or feeling that I had both.
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Kahil Gibran