MissConstrue wrote:
I was the opposite. I drank most likely due to genetics, my dad was also a severe alcoholic. The other half I think was due to the effects it had on me. The feeling of being "normal" amongst my peers and life in general. Just that first drink progressed from there. I guess I created my own version of what fun was all about which was drinking. It didn't take that much time to become dependent on it for situations I didn't think I could deal with. I realized my quantities had increased but did nothing about it. I started having blackouts, crazy stuff I wouldn't remeber doing, suicidal attempts, and etc. I was in and out of hospitals numerous times. I always told myself that I would never drink again and then after about 3 months or more, I'd start in again.
I think my biggest low point was when I got kicked out and put into a shelter. My dad let me live with him and I was in outpatient programs for 2 years. After many mistakes, I knew I had to get serious with my drinking. I've now been sober for over a year and 5 months. I'm still learning to cope with reality and the day to day crap.
I know from experience that sobriety made changes for the good but also sacrifice. My family isn't as paranoid like they used to be, I've gotten into hobbies and activities, and I'm still trying to figure out what the definintion of fun is on a saturday night besides going to a joint that caters to alcohol. Getting out and having fun has totally changed. I just can't hang around drunks, it just gets miserable and leads to other stuff like fights.
I've been clean from liquor and dope for 12 and a half years. It's good that you have picked up healthy hobbies to occupy your free time MissConstrue, people who don't do that are much more likely to go back to booze & dope. I hope you younger members who are curious about this are smart enough to learn from others mistakes. My own story is not that different from MissConstrue's. Alcohol & dope addiction can wreck your life long before it kills you.