Update: I had to work last night, there was definitely something going on inside my head that wasn't right. I think the stress of getting ready for the upcoming school year and moving away is starting to get to me. The last time I felt like this was last fall when I was pushing myself (from my perspective...) to get good grades since I need to have a 2.5 GPA to get into my B.A. program, and mine was only 2.2 with 48 credits.
About midway through the fall semester I noticed my mind beginging to play tricks on me, Mainly every now and then, I would hear things that weren't happening. i.e. I would be listening to music and I would hear a knock on my door and no one would be there, or I would be in bed and hear my mom call my name from outside my door, even though it was 2am and she would be sound asleep in her room.
The most bizzare incident happened when my IS class went on a two day field trip down to southwestern wisconsin to see areas the glaicers didn't touch. It was quite the trip, and we spent the night at a hotel in Pararie DuChein. I was dead tired, even though it was 8pm. I decided to sleep while the guy I was staying with went to another room to hang out for a while. While I was trying to sleep, (I never get any sleep in a bed other than my own) I hear footsteps creaking across the floor, then someone snickering, I turned around to see a person out of the corner of my eye begining to leave. I put my head back down on my pillow and it dawned on me, even though I was still awake, I never heard the door to room open or close. But I was tired and didn't bother to think about it.
Last night at work, I was totally out of it, I was there physically, but not mentally. Looking at row upon row of neatly faced products was unusually hard for me to handle. I went to bathroom to wash up before I went on break and I heard someone come in and go into one of the stalls, but when I was done with washing my hands, the doors to both stalls were wide open!
Then later on I heard the night checker call me a "meanie" as she went past the isle I was working in. I went to investigate as to why and she denyed the whole thing, along with two other people who said she didn't say what she did.
I don't know what to make of it. Last night was one of those night where I didn't feel like coming in and if I had a personal day I would have used it. But since I don't, I had no choice. I think I'll try and sleep this off today and hopefully I'll feel better when I wake up.
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