autisticstar wrote:
I have often felt as if there is a wall up between myself and other people and I have to wonder if anyone else feels the same way. It feels like there is some kind of shield up around me that prevents me from making connections the way most people do. I do have friends but for some of them, particularly the NT's, it just feels like there is this barrier that I somehow cannot cross. I'm just now coming to terms with this after a lifetime of trying so hard to crash through that barrier and failing. I sometimes feel like perhaps I have a richer inner world as a result of it, but I don't mean to say that I am superior to others but just different. I'm tired of pretending and have decided that I can no longer fight who I am. Sometimes it is a very lonely place to be but all of the pretending has taken a huge toll on me. The ironic thing is, I wasn't really fooling anyone anyway. I just wondered if it is a common way for people on the autism spectrum to feel.
Yes. That is a common way for people on the autism spectrum to feel.
Like an invisible bubble.
Like the bubble boy. Without the plastic.