yealc wrote:
Snowy Owl
Joined: Aug 04, 2005
Posts: 136
Location: Denver CO
Posted: Thu Aug 18, 2005 9:51 pm Post subject:
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I choose I have good control because I can control my reactions.
yealc wrote:
This does not mean however, that I am in control internally.
You feel them internally! how do you vent them?
yealc wrote:
I think my self-preservation does not really "trigger" anymore because after the life I have led I just don't trust anyone or anything enough to be open enough to have to self perserve.
Hmmmm? Describe, if you choose! This life you led that doesn't
create internal to external emotion triggers!
yealc wrote:
That sound really complicated but an example is that I finally told my husband I have to believe what my eyes and ears tell me and not what you tell me or I am always going to be in the wild "emotional" and accusitory state.
What caused in your life this childhood to adult distrust?
I have a suspicion, but will not assume publicly it!
yealc wrote:
Now that I have accepted that some things are just not they way I want them I am much more at peace than a month ago when I kept trying to belive what people told me that did not fit the facts. Honestly not really the way I want to live but I had to have a break from the intense firestorm of my self-preservation.
How many self-preserving storms did you average in a short
period? What triggers them. I suspect more than one
trigger here.
yealc wrote:
Ok that was a big purge looks like Ghosthunter made me think also
I am glad you choose to bloodlet here. I want to, if you don't
mind! To further this bloodletting.
I suspect many triggers, and some may be too personal for
this post. BE BRave!~
Sincerely,
Ghosthunter