Is it IMPOSSIBLE for an Aspie to be himself/herself?

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I mean, as an Aspie, when you first meet somebody new, is it even possible to be yourself?

I have met new people lately and no matter how I try to relax and be myself, the point is that when I do this, I always say the WRONG THING - the thing that stops the conversation, that is. The only way to really get to know them is by NOT being myself, and trying to say the right thing. I know everybody - Aspie and NT alike - must feel this way to an extent, but Aspies probably feel it a lot more, and maybe in a different way. I think I am Aspie in that my conversations with people are misaligned. Most people have a conversation pattern where one says A and the other says B, etc., but I always jump around and say X, or go back to A again...

Does that make sense? Do you think it's possible for an Aspie (or for anyone) to be himself/herself when meeting someone new?

I find it hard NOT to be myself....I am often instructed to "pretend"...i.e. go along with this imaginary script for standard social interractions....But I always draw a blank....and if I don't withdraw....then I immediately become hyper-divergant....and am always going on tangents.....(The victim makes polite pleasantries followed by hasty retreat)
OR....victim notices that I am "different" and the candied kindergarten teacher tone of voice is taken with me (sometimes with females)...."I have to go over there now and talk to someone else..okaaay?".....(I am exaggerating)...sorta....

Being outgoing enough to meet new people in the first place is something out of character for me, and talking to them in a way that builds rapport, even more so.

So no, being myself does not work for meeting new people.

No, it is not impossible. If you want to get along for the sake of getting along in the short term, then be superficial with the knowledge it's an act. But you need to be yourself at some point during a relationship, why not start at the beginning? If you're aware of your conversation patterns, why not use it to your advantage? Dare to be different.

My contributions to a conversation go off the road and people will give me an incomprehensible look like they're listening to a surrealist poet. I no longer pay any attention to them. It's much worse to be too self-conscious and try to be what I think people expect from me. I misread those cues and make matters worse. It's like lying. One lie leads to another towards the road to ruin.

I can't be myself when meeting a new person. It's like I put on a mask, and I'm never really myself. In fact the only person I have ever been comfortable enough with to be myself, (I mean fully and truly my self) is One-winged-angel. Nobody else knows the real me. (except maybe other family) people who have been my friend in the past *think* they know me, but they don't.

You mean, there's the possibility that I could be someone who I'm not?

I talk and walk like Daniel no matter where I am; which isn't much, and I kinda sway like an ape, but hey, not all of us can fit in the "normal" box.

Only around people I know and trust.

no, cause an "aspie" is always someone else. its an interesting property that only "aspies" seem to have. strange breed, huh?