As a child I had some obvious signs: I "lectured", talked too loudly and often over everyone else, couldn't summarize, ruminated on "convoluted" philosophical subjects, was clueless about social rules, spoke about odd things, was overly verbose, had attention shifting/focussing problems, etc. My mother was constantly embarrassed about my "acting crazy" and telling people I didn't know about my daydreams.
However, I seem to have been strongly hyperthymic throughout my childhood and almost always had that "everything is great" feeling. Because of this, it often seems like nothing whatsoever was wrong until I hit my mid teens. Then I suddenly turned from hyperactive to passive and phlegmatic (which, judging by what I've read, seems to be a fairly common turn of development in many ASD children) and, on top of everything, became depressed. It took me several years to climb out of the low. My adjustment and social skills certainly went downhill during that period, and I recall acting and feeling more weird than I had before.
By now I have regained at least some of that old exuberance, and during the "high" moments I tend to feel that everything is fine with me, and I must look perfectly conventional and ordinary (that is, until someone remarks on how odd I act).
I guess with me it's a matter of feeling wonderful subjectively, but at the same time seeming strange to others and failing to realize this.
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