Preoccupation with aesthetics.

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This is something that I have just observed in myself.

For the past few days, I have become increasingly agitated, and my reasons for feeling this way were unknown to me. Just now, I realised that I had, a few days previously, moved an item (a hanging mobile - I have many of these things in my room) from one side of my window to the other, altering the aesthetics of the room to make it appear less symmetrical. Also, my floor was cluttered with a small heater.

After moving the mobile back and removing the heater from my room I immediately felt completely relaxed and happy. And I have noticed in the past few months that I cannot have any item on display in my bedroom that is unattractive to me; even if it is functional. And my bed must be completely tidy at all times; the smallest crease in the sheets can send me reeling.

I can't stand the sight of anything being out of place. It is as though I can't make sense of my bedroom if it doesn't appear exactly "right". It becomes a meaningless jumble, and I can't cope with it. Everything in the room seems to scream at me, even those things that are in the correct order and place, and I feel that everything is wrong until I locate and correct the aberration.

It's almost an artistic thing; as though my room is a painting and everything in it must look aesthetically pleasing at all times.

I’m curious of what other people will make of this. What do you think this is?

There WAS a time when I had MUCH the same feeling. Even TODAY it sometimes shows up.

I get that way too, about stuff in my apartment. I think it's OK. It's just your artistic sense.

I have it bad.

I don't think it's a bad thing, my family has gotten used to it so it's not a huge deal for me to move things to where I want them. I have secondary OCD, so maybe that's that tendency manifesting itself for you.

This is more OCD than AS. I used to be like this but still not as extreme as you.

Yes, I agree with the other posts; it's probably OCD and just aesthetic taste. It's not that bad of an issue. I guess your living space must look quite nice.

Some of my rooms are very messy and others are very clean. Either way, if someone moves something or leaves an item out (like in the kitchen), it makes me irrationally angry/agitated.

I have a strong need for my environment to be aesthetically pleasing. I feel quite depressed when it is not so.

I do try to have an aesthetically pleasing room, but if it gets slightly messed up, it doesn't bother me.

Tim

I also get very upet when I can no longer change the room to suit my needs. I spent about an hour cleaning and fixing things last night after dinner.

Preoccupation with sheet creases? I got a good laugh out of that one, because I used to be horrible with every aspect of keeping everything perfectly in place. Thankfully, I am starting to learn that things can be imperfect and still be fine.

Yeah Ive had this on and off throughout the last 10 years of my life. I have artistic ability and I wouldnt put it partly past being aesthetically stimulated but there is was also a large part of OCD mixed in with myself. I find that orginazation tends to bring me comfort when I am going through a rough time in my life, possibly being able to bring order to a part in my life while everything else seems haywire has a lot to do with it. Try and focus on what you are feeling when you have the urge to change things around.

I am also a very spirtual person and the whole "godliness is clenliness" part comes into play as well and gives me a sense of being clensed when I feel conviction over something. Well those are just some of the reasons I get like this, so I hope that helps a little.

I learn more everyday...I constantly tell my DH that I miss the days when I lived alone in my apartment, it was perfect, spotless and with candles everywhere...also soft music playing most of the time. I also remember everyone telling me how calm and peaceful I always was...well, of course, when I lived there...

I have tried to get rid of that whole "everything has to be nice, pretty, in the right place" because I would drive my spouse crazy...so sometimes you'll see I just let it go...but when it starts to pile up, I lose it! I go crazy! I didn't think this was anything related to AS or OCD...hmmm...now, well, maybe it is???