i care a lot but have realised i dont show much physical compassion,if your dad is undiagnosed as i thought less compasion was a sympton, i could be wrong, that doesnt mean i agree with him hitting you and yelling at you but i should imagine frustration plays a large part in this. my mother has loads of as symptons and i always felt unloved growing up,even in family photos she would cuddle the animals but never me,im not looking for sympathy i am just trying to say, that my mum has never changed and if your dad is as especially if he cant admit it that its unlikely that he will change either, thats not to say he doesnt love you maybe he just has a problem relating or expressing himself properly.
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