I think I have Aspergers..

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I'm not sure if I have Asperger's or not. In the past I had a counselor suggest I might have ADD..but..
anyway I know that you guys may not want to diagnose some random person online for obvious reasons but I was just wondering if anybody else on here could relate to me...therefor I could get see if we draw parallels..I don't have health care at the moment to go get diagnosed professionally. I'll try not to leave much if anything out about myself.
I'm 24 and I still feel like a little kid..like a 10 year old. I'm mystified by how the world works around me. I believe I am exceptionally intelligent and that I could do great things with my life but even though I have an extraordinary memory I still test bad on subjects after I've more than learned and comprehended them...so therefor I had a hard time in school.
People my age and not much older seem to be sooooo much older and they generally seem to know what they are doing...I don't. I hold very awkward conversations...I make people feel awkward with out of place comments...such as adding in "I really like the smell of office buildings"...when I talk to people I am told I never let them speak or I never make a point. People have always bullied me and made fun of me, including to this day. I get upset and anxious when I'm around a lot of people...I always assume people are talking about me and when I enter stores or malls voices are extremely loud. I usually take people quite literally most of the time although there are times when I do notice sarcasm. I am very fidgety. I can intently concentrate on one thing but then change up to other things to be fanatical about a few weeks later. Certain things agitate me...like certain colors and I can smell a shorted cigarette from a mile away...and it will agitate me and make me mad...I'm also highly sensitive to perfumes and they also agitate me. I have a short fuse and I'm always depressed, feeling like the world is against me. I most of the time feel worthless and have low self-esteem. I've always been more interested in things that "boys" would be interested in..such as certain toys and the way I dress. I can't stand womans clothing...I feel awkward in them. I do have one thing that has remained of constant interest in my life and that is music. I own a very large and comprehensive music collection as well as play drums, guitar and bass. I am currently working on composing my own music in pro tools...albeit kinda slowly because I also have a propensity for laziness...

I am a very good reader and can write well and I would say that my vocabulary is pretty good but even though I understand just about anything that is taught to me I still test bad comparatively in math.

I probably left some stuff out but I can't just sit here and write a novel about my life so...
The reason I've been compelled to ask this question is because I'm going back to college and I'm very intimidated by the thought of growing up and getting through all my classes. I haven't found anything that really makes me jump up and down with enthusiasm ...and on top of that I don't really have much confidence that I could do anything important even though I know that I am intellectually all there...

I would deeply appreciate if anybody on here could give me some insight as to if they have the same feelings or anything thoughts about if I may have asperger's syndrome..or anything else for that matter..
thanks in advance

I do want to add one other strange thing...some days I have loud days and other days I don't..meaning..some days everything is exceptionally loud..like I'll have to lower my tv down to level 8 (which is really barely audible)...but then the next day I may have to raise it to 38 which is much much louder...you would think I was going deaf but I also hear high frequencies too ...also some days I seem to have dimensional differences whereas it seems one day the world is in perfect 3D but then another day that the world is more overwhelming..

Your mannerisms sound very much like the traits of Asperger's Syndrome. Have you tried any online AS tests? There are a few about (like this one).

Whether you are an bona fide aspie or not, don't be hard on yourself. I know what you are going through, as I am of a similar age and am in a similar situation myself. Just take one day at a time and divide your challenges into manageable pieces and you will be fine. You come across as an intelligent young woman with loads of potential. Wrong Planet will a great source of support for you. Welcome to the forum!

Incidentally, what are you looking to study at uni? Do you have any particularly special interests? If you do then it could be of great benefit for you to choose a course that involves them somehow.

I'm going to pursue a degree in computer science...I would like to get into computer engineering but may go with programming. I really want a music degree but since I'm funding it and all I thought it would be better to be practical.

I relate to this all too well. Read around this site.

Great idea! Comp Sci is a popular choice among people with Asperger's, and you could always minor in music anyway. And it's good to see you're thinking ahead to post-graduation and the potential job market. I did a BA in English Literature and Ancient History (2 of my 'special interests') and ended up almost unemployable I'm at teacher's college now doing my graduate diploma in secondary teaching, hoping to get into special needs education. I'd be an aspie teaching aspies!

Anyways, nice to 'meet' ya. As scumsuckingdouchebag (nice name bro ) said, read around the site and you'll see that lots of people from all walks of life live with Asperger's Syndrome. It doesn't have to be a burden if you know yourself and your particular needs and have a good support network. See ya around!

Welcome Bundens,

You'll feel at home here.

BTW: 24 and still being bullied - at that age it's not bullying - it's harassment - and it's illegal.

ACK! Get a better program. Are you using OS X, XP, Vista, or Linux?

Welcome Bundens, certainly sounds like you're one of the gang. There's some good AS tests at www.autismresearchcentre.com . Don't let it get you down; AS is the new "must-have" in this technological age...

I sugest you just read around the site ans stick around if you feel a sense of belonging.

Welcome

Welcome bundens!

Your account sounds very much like mine. I'm still at the discovery stage too.

This made me laugh. We had someone come in for a meeting at work the other day, and all I could smell was satsumas on him, and all I could think about was him eating a satsuma, peeling a satsuma, satsuma juice, satsuma skin.. etc... then when he went, my colleague started to discuss the meeting, and I just said "he'd been eating satsumas". I got a very strange look.

Welcome to WP!

You sound to me exactly like a troll who is trying to fake Aspergers and get some kind of attention out of this forum.

Why would I want to fake having aspergers?
Furthermore, you only know me by words...and if I might add..very little of them being as I've only posted a little bit on here.
The reason I came on here is that of which I have stated mostly prompted by my partner because she always says I seem autistic...and until I came onto this forum I didn't even know the definition of autism, let alone aspergers...
I MAY or MAY NOT have Aspergers...all I know is that I can relate to a lot of things being posted on these forums

also,
If it's one thing I'm not it's pretentious

I don't thinks so... most people that try to get attention round here make posts like "I'm a ret*d, please cure me", or "Free Online Viagra"

Elaich: When a new person comes to the door - DON'T try to slam it in their face, 'cos it's bad manners and not at all welcoming.


Bundens,

I don't know why elaich suddenly went mad but please don't think that the rest of us feel that way.

Have a go of the online test and let us know how you go.

http://www.rdos.net/eng/Aspie-quiz.php

Some of the symptoms you described as aspie, but many are not. Of course, we're all still learing about Aspergers - so they might be.