How to get diagnosed with autism as an adult?

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Hello, I am new to these forums.

I was pulled from the normal school curriculum as a child, and the people there tried to place me in special education. My father, foolish man, started screaming at the school owners for doing this. He said there's nothing wrong with me and to keep me in normal school. I believe I would've been diagnosed with autism at this stage in my life, but it did not happen because of my dad and his arrogance/pride.

So now I am 22 years old, can't drive, get bullied at every job despite being totally silent and have no friends, and I didn't learn to ride a bicycle until I was 21. I bounce when I walk, can't catch a ball, can't pay attention to anything people do, don't laugh at any jokes anyone says, have a monotone voice and an awkward speech pattern, and I can't think about what's going on in someone else's mind. If I were to go and try and get a job on my own, I would be brutalized by the interviewer, and they would reject me as I am awkward and not white. I had to read about women being incapable of disconnecting from what's in their face to realize that I am constantly being watched and assessed by women.

I think if I do not get diagnosed it will turn into a matter of life and death in the future.
If I ever end-up digging out of garbage cans to keep living, I am just going to try and kill myself. I know that, for me, there is no inner sanctuary. My life can turn into the blackest hell if I do not have entertainment, clean water, and food. It would be better for me to be dead. I need to be diagnosed with autism because I need the SSDI money to live a safe life.

Making matters worse, I live in a small town in Texas. There is no easy opportunity for employment here, and if I miss one day of work, I will be terminated and replaced, so I will easily fall back down to extreme poverty.

No one wants to hire me.
No one wants to help me.
Everyone is against me and I am constantly bullied at work, so this means the greater society is against me.
When my dad dies, I am going to die too if I am undiagnosed.

So what channel can I go through to see about getting a diagnosis?
I don't know if it's Aspergers or Autism. I think I have an IQ of 133, but I have a very masculine face that was exposed to a lot of prenatal testosterone in the womb. It is so masculine that I look primitive/thuggish to most people. This is due to race-mixing and the fact that I am a male.

If I were to give my IQ attentiveness a number (the amount of general intelligence that my brain can handle before the increased sentience is outweighed by the feminization, causing increased connection), I would be a 116 IQ, but I am consistently beyond this IQ number in daily life, so I am in deep trouble. I can't drive without panicking, and not being capable of driving will destroy me.

My father stole $22,000 from me after he forced me to work with him.
He told me he would pay it back, but he just stole it and never did. My mother says there's nothing wrong with me, but I think she just wants me to be of the highest status because I came from her, and she sees me as a part of herself as she has an East Asian thought process (Everything is a part of me), so she will lie and say I am normal when I am not.

The average person is a terrible demon compared to me. I am totally defenseless against them.
My only tool is to get hurt and then reject, permanently.

EDIT:
My sister thinks there's nothing wrong with me because I'm intelligent, but she is totally oblivious to my lot in life. She is totally blind to reality. She sees that I'm not ret*d and that she likes me as a human being, and she thinks I'm healthy when I'm sick and incapable of competing with the rest of the human species at an industrial standard.

Somehow the females in my family have gotten it into their mind that autism = mental retardation when, in my mind, it's actually just the opposite of schizophrenia, but to not be schizophrenic in a world that is this dangerous is insane. You are asking to be murdered by being weak.

Everyone I know wants to act as if I am mentally fine. No one cares if I live or die, and I am stuck begging for help but there's no easy place to go. Nobody loves me or cares about me, so I am being left to die because they don't want to help me even when I'm as young as I am. They don't understand the extreme difficulty of my life and they don't care to understand even when I tell them what's happening. Tomorrow is my only chance to get work toward a diagnosis as it's a weekday, but my father doesn't want to work on it. He doesn't want to help me, once more.

They don't care if I die. They would rather lie down and have an easy day and say "f**k you." because it won't be their life in the end.
They're setting me up to shoot myself with the gun my dad bought.

General Medical Doctors usually have the power to refer you to a clinical psychologist who are specialised in ASD.

If your MD is unable to refer you to a specialist, then i would read up on the following links below.
One of these should be able to help you with the info that you need.

US Autism Association
texas autism society
American Autism Association
autism speaks
medicaid covers autism texas

Off hand I can think of two courses of action.

You can try telling this to a doctor and see if you can get a referral to a psychologist.

You can try getting tested by a college psychology department.

Another possible source of info on where to get a diagnosis:

Autism Society of Texas

Also: As I said to someone else in another thread:

Hopefully there are psychotherapists in your area who are knowledgeable about ASD and can test you? If you can't afford this and it's not covered by your insurance, try to see if you can find a place where psychotherapy student "externs" work under the direction of a fully qualified psychotherapist who specializes in ASD diagnosis. That's a LOT cheaper.

Good luck!