Are obsessions voluntary? Also my issue I have..

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Can a Asperger/Autistic person choose to not have an obsession? Does the obsession just "happen" or is it like a "I choose to obsess over this."

The reason I am asking this, is because I kind of feel guilty over the obsessions I do have. I feel guilty for having them, most particularly the one about wanting to have a baby. It is because I want to talk to my mom about it, but I want to talk to her so much about it that it drives her nuts. I didn't choose this obsession, it sort of just "happened" suddenly, and it is hard to not to want to think about it. Oddly, I strongly want to give into this obsession, but at the same time, I don't want it because I am bugging people so much about it. When I try to push it away and I don't try to think about it, I still feel it. Even if I don't want it at the time, I still feel it; a sort of weird excitement that is almost like under the skin, a sort of electicity (metaphorically speaking.) It is as if I have two parts to me- an NT part that I think, but my body and brain are Aspergian. That is, it is as if I am an NT trapped in an autistic body. My mind thinks one way, but my brain and body have other ideas. (again, metaphorically speaking) I hope I wasn't too confusing, this is a difficult thing to describe easily.

It can be a hormonal thing.
How old are you?
I had kids relatively young, and it isn't the easiest thing to do. I wouldn't advise anybody else to do it!!

I am 28. It could be hormonal, but it has been going on for at least 2 years. This obsession is so strong, I am even lactating.

Lactating without a pregnancy can happen, but I doubt it's caused just by thinking about it. It can be a side-effect of some medications and it can also be caused by consistently stimulating the nipple (Induced lactation). It can also be caused by hormonal imbalances. Might want to talk to your doctor about it.

Is falling in love voluntary?

trust me- the having a baby obsession goes off as soon as your pregnant!

Well most of the medications that I have been on haven't been known to cause lactation, and I know I am not stimulating my nipples. Plus I had blood tests and an MRI to check for any chance of abnormal hormones or even a tumor..
It could be hormones, but is it possible it could be a true obsession? I am wondering if there is a way to distinguish between the two or even if they could be a combination?

I know I want to have at least one kid, but I hope that is true even after. Otherwise this obsession could cause me to breed like a mad rabbit if it doesn't quit after a pregnancy!