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October 15th, 2005

October 19th is my birthday. I started
the year(January) with wondering where the
release from the hostel would be and only
hope of a job(Quizno's). I would have been
homeless.

By March, I would have been suggested
to check out Aspergers. This was the
beginning of a journey that I wouldn't know
how to conclude. I still don't know how
it will end, but I have made sure I wasn't
disillusioned. If I see potential failure, I
would assume the feelings of failure, so
when or if not failure at all failure occur I
would have properly faced these feelings
in preparation for whatever was needed.

I did complete much review in Autism
Spectrum Disorder. I then discovered out
of many choices in sites WrongPlanet.net.
I would let it be a place(past tense) for
bloodletting and voicing and helping.
Without this occuring I would not be in a
post-DX position to consider, and that is
why I grieve for those like me who don't
see that opportunity now on wrongplanet.
The world isn't pg13, nor are all feelings
contrary to what-some-want-to-see as
popular belief. Disney is just a studio,
not a real thing.

Later I did a road trip with minimal cash.
I met some members here and there
and realized even in the autism spectrum
individuals, my sexual past that allowed me
to explore feeling in many ways; including
my words and stories would greatly offend
the later generation posters and betrayal
occured. I know trust no one even with
autism since there has been betrayal in
my path even there. BeeBee and Pyraxis
are the last 2 I trust.

It was suggested that I find another site,
but I dont want another broken heart that
deciept has broken. My arrival at Apple
Valley, Minesota led to a stable housing that
is allowing a exploring of the options that
weren't available in California. I now have
a Diagnoses, and no regret.

I was scared when the VAT, vocational
apptitude test, may have been denied and all
I saw here was $600 per month in a Target job.
That, as I should know, wouldn't house me here
and California. I got confirmation that there
is one on Friday.

I was verbally lashing at Pyraxis about how
only a DX and $600 meant that in 20 years of
no hope equals can collecting and $200 per month
in Social Security. That would by by age 62, or
2028. I was destructive in words about myself
since i have seen much despair and to no avail
my kindness and being left out of life by me being
myself and not accepted as such.

I am here for the winter. I have my comics,
and computer stuff. I may be stranded, but BeeBee
has shown much faith in me, and I thank her for
allowing meto stay here. The reality is $600 a
month from a Target would just lead me down the
darkness called homelessness. I still hope for
that college degree by 45.


The next steps are the VAT and assessed job
assignments to see my strenghts and weaknesses.
I have no idea where that is going to go. I thank
BeeBee for her patience with me, though she realistically
is unable to be emotional support, at least
I am not dishoused(winter 05'-06'). I hold no
guarentees past that point. I thank Pyraxis for her
tolerating my stepping into darknesses way, and
confronting it and she being on the recieving(listening)
end. Muchhhhhh thanks, and this is where wrongplanet
should have had a role, but the current form is PG13,
and I live in a PG17 world.


I didn't travel 1000's of miles for dishousing, but
leave here a better person. Not much to ask, and I
am sad that wrongplanet has become what it is, thus
darkness has taken it's toll on me. And future PG17
Ghosthunters like me are denied another expression cave.

http://wildswanspond.com/wildswan/vids4.html

On this website.......
the Video "Rook" is my innerdarkness reflection and homelessness
and dying alone, and betrayed

The Video "Please Please" is the reflection my inner hope that
one day I will be accepted and loved for who I am and how I
communicate. Too much darkness and not enough hope.

I hope the future ghosthunters of a PG17 level can
rise above their being judged, even by fellow autistic
folk. Until then what stands out the most in me, and
perhaps them is the lack of living life and communication,
thus the "Rook" is more prominent as walk darknesses
door.

http://wwww.newportvintagebooks.com/otr/

Mystery:
Green Hornet
The Shadow

http://www.themonsterclub.com/radiolibrary.htm

Witches Tale
Hermits Cave
Fear on Four

http://www.radiolovers.com/pages/allshows.html

Beyond Midnight
-especially "let me see your face" & "the room"
Fear on Four
Unsolved Mysteries
Witches Tale

This composes my base "Stan's Old Time Radio"
burned CD. I enjoy the hobby and downloads,
but have my favorites. I just thought to share.

Glad to see you, glad to see that you're still here. If I don't see you here by 10.19, I wish you a happy Birthday.

On another note, I think you're reading too much into the actions of some of the people here. Try to lighten up, relax, and frequent the site more. Sure, you think that a lot of the people on this site are as*holes, but look on the flipside, there are now over 2000 members here. Hell when I joined there were 1300 members, when i joined.

It's a numbers game, and with those kinds of numbers you will invariably find people that you won't get along with, be it online or in real life. For the record, out of all of these people, I can't say I find any that I truly despise, though discussions have been heated at times. --this is in stark contrast to dealing with people in real life, where my tolerance of other people is much less.

Make of this what you will, good luck.

Hi! Fogman

I am glad you replied. Thanks for that happy birthday.
Did you checkout the Emoti-Vid selections yet to glimmer
at the emotions that are represented on video about myself.

Did you checkout the Old time radio sites. I gave a personal
favorite list.

I hope you are doing well? How are things in S.Carolina?

Sincerely,
Ghosthunter

I just took a quick glance at the site.



I havn't yet, but I'll go over it. *EDIT * got a 404 error on the radiolovers site.



It's still SC, and I'm still here, so I guess I'm doing OK.

Sincerely,
Ghosthunter[/quote]

by the way, I downloaded the voice file that Pyraxis posted on the site, with the intention of attempting to fix the audio on it, but was unable to get it back to her due to webmail issues.

I feel like sharing, and since much has changed
since January I am grateful. Do give the vids
a serious look. they reflect a aspect of myself
as well as the dramas.

What have you been currently doing while in
S.Carolina?

Sincerely Ghosthunter
and I will be turning 39

I will, but I'm' up a bit late as it is, probably in the morning



Picking up odd jobs here and there. Doing some, (but not enough) writing, watching the sheeple, uh, I mean people.

Here is list of my current 10¢ cover and
pre-hero marvel 12¢ covers:

*this is mixed in both the collection in S.F
and Apple Valley

Dell Publications:
1949.....10¢
Tom & Jerry #61-taped spine $3

1951....10¢
Four Color #355(Hot-Rod Bugs.B) $9

1953....10¢
Lone Ranger #65 $8
Tarzan #42 $1

1954....10¢
Four Color #496(Green Hornet) $27
Four Color #544(Rob Roy Disney Movie) $5
Cisco Kid #23(TV-Radio-Movies) $5
Little Iodine #24 $5

1956....10¢
Looney Tunes #177(Bugs and Friends) $5
Lone Ranger #98 $3

1960...10¢
Four Color #1078(3 Stooges) $1
Quick Draw McGraw #2 $6

1962...12¢
Edgar Allen Poe's Tales of Terror
(Movie Comics Edition by Dell) $2

**#60-#120 Tarzans(9 mixed #'s) $1 each

Marvel/Atlas/Marvel ©48'-62':
1950....10¢
All-True Crime #41 $10
Kid Colt #9 $29

1951....10¢
Kid Colt #13 $25

1952....10¢
Wild Western #27(w/Kid Colt) $30
kid Colt #22 $25

1954....10¢
Black Rider #23 $15

1955....10¢
kid Colt #46 $7

1956....10¢
Kid Colt #65 $18

1960....10¢
kid Colt #94 $7

1962....12¢
Tales to Astonish #30 $10
Journey Into Mystery #82 $15

Harvey Comics:
1944....10¢
Green Hornet #21 $75

1949....10¢
Green Hornet #45 $35

1958....10¢
Warfront #33 $2

Street & Smith:
1948....10¢
The Shadow Volume 7, #10 $70

Gleason:
1951....10¢
Crime and Punishment #39 $6

Charlton:
1958....10¢
Homer, the happy ghost #18 $5

I.W:
1958....10¢
Kid Koko(©47' reprint issue) #1 $2

Gold key
1967....12¢
Star Trek #1 $50

This comprises my 10/15/05' collection.
It is n't much but i collect as a hobby and
try to find classic and fun titles of the 10¢ genre
mostly.

hmmmm?
What kind of odd jobs have you found.
The most common ones down here are
box stores and 4 strip malls and that is
a hour walk

a 2.5 hour walk gets you to burnsville and
more box stores and strip malls.

????????
just curious

Uh, just construction stuff.... also attempeted to help some guy with his computer, but he had some really severe spyware issues. --did manage to get him connected via wifi, downloaded the current version of Opera via FTP, and got him surfing, though.

I've been paying too much attention to the internet.

True!

since I got a USB Burner, I am spending
much time online. I use it as a lack-of-
social-skills tool. It allows me to complete
projects that come to mind. So I can
understand the too-much internet time.

Hmmmmm? is it because of social or
?unknown reasons why you go online alot???

How skilled in computers are you? It is
my hunch you are more skilled than me.
I will safely assume you do PC's.

Just being friendly,
Ghosthunter

Nice to see you Ghosty! Glad to hear you are starting to get some things sorted out, I hope you can find a way to improve your long term situation. That was a very cool thing for BeeBee to do.
I missed the whole oldgen/newgen discussion as I left the site myself for a while in July, and only returned recently. I haven't really got my head around in what ways the site has changed yet, so I can't really comment on that. I remember how much you had to 'bloodlet' when you came to WP, and I'm glad we were able to help each other learn. As you know, you can send me a message any time matey - I'm sometimes busy or (more usually) mentally exhausted, but I'll try to respond as best I can.

Oldgen #523 Dunc

Hi! Captain!

There has been much sensorship since you
left and (unnamed person for politness) took
reigns as local authority god!

PM, and I will fill in the blanks.

I hope you peruse my audio selections
and check out the Emoti-vids to give
a perspective the feeling that drive this
forum.

How are you and your family?
What did you do in shipleave and mod'ing
duties?

Sincerely,
Ghosthunter

Ghosty, I'm gonna ring you on your birthday.

Hi! tom

I hope you are doing well. I am glad
that you still remember me! I hope
to hear from you on my birthday.

Did you read the full paragraphs, because
I had a lot to say. And do checkout the
emoti-vids that reflect me to understand the
nature and meaning of this forum.

Do also checkout my old time radio selections.
I gave a favorite list and resource sites for
downloads.

I hope you are doing well?
How is life outside wrongplanet for you?
Are you a student? i forget!

Thanks for posting here and the Captain has
returned, Captain Dunctvis is back! yay!

sincerely,
Ghosthunter