I don't really think I belong here anymore

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03 Jun 2008, 11:28 pm

This might sound odd, but I think I'm very slowly growing out of my AS.

Just listen to me on this one, mmkay?

1) I never stimm

2)I don't (usually)have meltdowns

3)I have really started to act mature, and I don't know why.

4)I never act hyper anymore, really!

5)I can interact with people in a friendly manner, initiate conversations, and keep them 2 way!

Now mind you when I was little, you could say nothing on this list described me.
Fast foward 10 years, and I am so completley different that it's not even funny.

I don't know what's happening, but I don't feel like an Aspie anymore
Is anyone else experiencing this?

Please respond to this

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03 Jun 2008, 11:29 pm

I sometimes do, yet I stay on here because I feel that I'm not good enough for the NT world.

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03 Jun 2008, 11:31 pm

It's funny, I'm too normal for the wierdos at my school yet I'm too strange for the Nts!

It's like I'm trapped in the middle!

Spokane_Girl

03 Jun 2008, 11:37 pm

There ought to be a place for borderline aspies. :lol:

I've felt the same way. I've felt I am too mild for AS but too severe for AS based on my childhood.

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03 Jun 2008, 11:51 pm

MiniMozartAspie wrote:

It's funny, I'm too normal for the wierdos at my school yet I'm too strange for the Nts!

It's like I'm trapped in the middle!

That's the exact same feeling I have!

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03 Jun 2008, 11:54 pm

Spokane_Girl wrote:

There ought to be a place for borderline aspies. :lol:

I've felt the same way. I've felt I am too mild for AS but too severe for AS based on my childhood.

Well it's good to know that I'm not the only one.

Is it possible to maybe contact an admin and ask he/she to set up a Borderline Aspie Board?
That would be really appreciated!

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04 Jun 2008, 12:01 am

Tim_Tex wrote:

I sometimes do, yet I stay on here because I feel that I'm not good enough for the NT world.

That's funny. I feel like the NT world is barely adequate for me at best.

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04 Jun 2008, 12:12 am

MiniMozartAspie wrote:

Is anyone else experiencing this?

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I meet all those, have a job involving customer service, and still have subtle things about me that are not quite normal.

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04 Jun 2008, 12:40 am

Sometimes I feel like I don't belong here. I have days at work where everything goes super and I act more normal.

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04 Jun 2008, 1:14 am

IpsoRandomo wrote:

MiniMozartAspie wrote:

Is anyone else experiencing this?

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I meet all those, have a job involving customer service, and still have subtle things about me that are not quite normal.

I am in customer service, too!
I rotate over the years (about every 10 to 14 year cycles) between doing very well in the NT world and then the next few years I lose ground and find myself being far more autistic, and then when I laid on the bottom for a couple of years, barely able to function in the world, I pull myself up by my bootstraps and get it together for another 10 years. There is about a 4 year transition period when I am not doing so hot, but I think it intersting.
When I take a look at my Social Security Report, I can see the waves of when I felt NT and when I felt Aspie. My earnings rise into an arc to thousands of dollars and then descend into zeros. I took it to my psychologist that is diagnosing me and he said it was astute I picked up on it. And that it showed something was going on.

Merle

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04 Jun 2008, 1:29 am

I have a job where I sort of have to work with people. Guests sometimes ask me where something is and I tell them. I also have to deliver stuff to the rooms when guests ask for something. Then there are the housekeepers who can hardly speak English and they are so hard to understand. What's frustrating is I sometimes don't understand their commands and what they are asking me and telling me what they want me to do. Sure I can understand when they say "take the trash" and when they said "wait" or "hold on" and when they point to the floor at the laundry or glasses or cups. They're all simple things to understand. But when it comes to something that is more than a few words for me to understand what I am supposed to do, they can't explain to me because they don't know how in English. I would bet this is an everyone thing who would struggle with this.

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04 Jun 2008, 1:40 am

Spokane_Girl wrote:

I wrote into Bablefish BABELFISH several of the more common phrases of what they wanted me to do (Feed the Fish, Make the bed, call the manager, scratch their back) and translated them into what ever language and wrote them into a flip book of index card with the English in smaller letters on the bottom of the page .
Then I handed it to them and they could find what they wanted me to do and I would know. It helped immediately and I learned a bit of the language, too.

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04 Jun 2008, 1:44 am

To the original poster,

A lot of us are affected to significantly different degrees by AS, so it is very reasonable to say that some people wouldn't display symptoms that others would. I noticed that I don't do a lot of things described here, but that doesn't mean I don't have AS, or that the other people have it particularly bad. Like any group of people, we still have differences among us.

Also, I've noticed that AS manifests itself in different ways as I move through different stages of life. I have adapted to many recognized problems and picked up new ones at the same time. I don't think AS symptoms remain constant throughout life.

Finally, even if you really didn't have AS, I don't think that would be a reason to leave the board if you would still rather stay.

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04 Jun 2008, 3:21 am

MiniMozartAspie wrote:

Is anyone else experiencing this?

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Don't frown, laddie! Sounds like you have a shot at living a normal life! Although I'm pretty sure a hardwired neurological configuration like AS won't just taper off like a hangover headache.

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04 Jun 2008, 3:28 am

sinsboldly wrote:

I rotate over the years (about every 10 to 14 year cycles) between doing very well in the NT world and then the next few years I lose ground and find myself being far more autistic, and then when I laid on the bottom for a couple of years, barely able to function in the world, I pull myself up by my bootstraps and get it together for another 10 years. There is about a 4 year transition period when I am not doing so hot, but I think it interesting.

So do I.

I have the same pattern. Four years very hermit/shut down/off world, and than start moving back into things.

1975, 1989, 2003, withdrawal/breakdown

1979, 1993, 2007, coming out again!

I put it down to Saturn cycles. Saturn takes 29 years to do a full circle, "creating"/marking "interesting" ( :wink:

) oppositions every 14 and a half years, and "variations on a theme" every 7. I've been fascinated by the patterns of Saturn in my life ever since had my huge personal moment of grace/revolution exactly the year I turned 29 and found out about the famous First Saturn Return, which some people experience more violently than others.

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04 Jun 2008, 5:10 am

I think the fact that you feel a transgressor for being here, and feel the need to admit it, (Im going out on a limb) pretty much proves you belong here. Either way, even if AS no longer effects you directly, your experience can still be useful to others.

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