oceandrop wrote:
I am worried about becoming dependent on these things, about it affecting my moods or emotional responsiveness (e.g. apathy), and the physical problems (e.g. sexual dysfunction which can become permanent).
I can't speak to sexual dysfunction, because I'm asexual and I've not noticed any change in my non-existent sex drive.
I have noticed that my emotions tend to be less extreme when I take antidepressants. "Elated" becomes merely "Joyful"; but, to balance it out, "Devastated" is reduced to "dejected". This is not an intense effect, and it vanishes about two weeks after the last dose. It is definitely a good trade for not getting depression.
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Any thoughts from anyone who has had success or not with these? I am severely depressed and don't know what else to try at this point. Thanks.
You said it yourself: You're severely depressed. You can use any help you can get, and as far as these things go, antidepressants are a relatively safe thing to try. It's very hard to pull yourself out of a depression--most of the time, all you can manage to do is survive until it wanes enough that you can grab a hold of sanity, if only by your fingernails. This is worth a try. You shouldn't feel too different--you won't feel happy or "high"; if you do, you're having a bad reaction and should call the doctor (this has never happened to me or anyone I've talked to, but apparently it can happen). Most likely, you'll feel like you have just a little more motivation, a little more will to fight. For the next few weeks, you will probably feel just as discouraged and sad as you have been during your depression, but you'll have a little bit more energy to fight it with, a little more ability to think and question the logic of the idea that everything is hopeless.
One thing I really recommend to you is to find a sensible therapist you can talk to, especially about solving the practical problems in your life. Whether this is a professional psychologist, a counselor, a religious leader, or a mentor--it all depends on what sort of medical care you can access--the important thing is that this person needs to be somebody who is willing to listen to you and help you solve problems, and will treat you with respect while you are doing it.